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COVID, week 40 + a birth … of a vaccine

COVID, week 40 + a birth … of a vaccine

In the last forty weeks — the average length of human gestation! we could have literally (and I do mean literally) grown and birthed a pandemic baby by now! —  more than 304,000 Americans have died from COVID-19, with nearly 22,000 of those coming from the state of California (and over 550 of them from my county alone). And of course, lest we forget, as of today, there have been 16.8 million cases of COVID in the USA.

Numbers don’t tell the entire story and especially in today’s day and age when we are all inundated with numbers and have relatively easy access to data. It’s pretty easy to lose sight of what all of this looks like. Behind the numbers are people, individuals, someone’s partner, parent, child … everything.  

So what does 304,000 deaths look like? This is how I visualize it; how do you?  

  • My entire hometown when I was growing up, 16x over 
  • My entire hometown county when I was growing up, 2x over 
  • My entire university’s undergraduate and graduate degree student populations, 13x over 
  • My entire ZIP code where I last lived in Chicago, 4x over 
  • My entire current ZIP code in San Jose, 10.5 times over

Picturing COVID-induced death in this way — entire swaths of my life, gone — is pretty harrowing and humbling. It’s also effective, at least for my kids and me, when it comes to talking about altering our behaviors so that more people won’t get sick and/or die. I wonder if visualizing and, for lack of a better word, personalizing, death like this is one way that we could visualize the ramifications of COVID for the masses. 

And yet, in this whole COVID narrative that I’ve been ruminating on throughout the last 40 weeks, this whole tragedy wherein I have tried to piece together some modicum of meaning, this week our country traversed an important crossroads as we began administering vaccines, what we all have been dreaming about since the virus turned our world upside down forty weeks ago. Granted, we plebs aren’t getting ours until the spring most likely, but there is hope, and if anyone’s getting priority access to a vaccine, I am 100% behind it going to our medical pros who are swimming in COVID exposure risk day in and day out. 

We are now beginning our country’s biggest immunization campaign ever. How important — and how symbolic — that a Black female nurse, Sandra Lindsay, in NY, was the first to receive it in the US. Here in California, ICU nurse Helen Cordova, in LA, was our first. 

Having a vaccine now — a real-life, tried and true vaccine — will no doubt change both the narrative and the trajectory of the virus, and naturally, tons of questions spring to mind, mostly wondering how fast we’ll all be able to return to “normal” now That For Which We Have So Longed exists. (Short answer: not anytime soon).  

With Thanksgiving behind us, and now Christmas and New Year’s ahead of us, (as well as a cold, dark winter for most people in this country), it seems a generally-accepted reality that the next few months will be very hard because — unless huge segments of society change their behavior — tons of people will continue to die, likely eclipsing our already horrific daily totals, making today’s daily tragedies unfathomably desirable by comparison.

winter = luscious green here

So what’s the point? Is this the time in my weekly musings where I throw in a tenuous running analogy, wherein I encourage and remind all of us — myself included — to stay in the mile that we’re in, to not look longingly too far ahead of us at the (ever-changing) finish line, or to acknowledge that just because reality is shitty and awful right now, all of us must remember that it’s not always going to be that way?

Maybe. 

It’s basically the same refrain I’ve been trumpeting all along. Just because it’s bad now doesn’t mean it’s always going to be that way. We have this wonderful thing called agency, and with that comes, well, opportunity.

We do have a choice in the matter.

People will do what they want to do, regardless of evidence! science! common sense! to the contrary. Getting people to care is really, really difficult, but I’m optimistically or maybe naively convinced that it’s not completely impossible. Easy? Absolutely not, but possible? …maybe. Always leave room for hope, I guess? 

At any rate, as the year comes to a close, and as the holiday season — however dulled it may be this year — approaches and envelops (or overwhelms or depresses) so many of us, it is my dearest hope that you and yours can devise a way to celebrate, safely, and take stock of all for which you are thankful this year. 

2020 has been heartbreaking in more ways than one, and we still have a good two+ more weeks to fit in even more (and worse), so it seems a bit dangerous to tempt fate this early. 

Our problems won’t magically vaporize when the clock strikes midnight on 1/1/21, but maybe — hopefully! — soon there will be more of us — enough of us — doing the right thing such that our solutions will become more feasible than they currently are. 

With the kids being off for break over the next couple weeks, I’m not sure how much mental bandwidth I’ll have to devote to this space, so consider this my early wishes for you to stay safe, be well, and have an enjoyable (and hospital-free) holiday season.

  

COVID, week 39 + how do we get people to care

COVID, week 39 + how do we get people to care

Well.

Predictably, SCC and the surrounding Bay Area counties added further restrictions to the Governor’s initial guidelines after I posted last week; just call me Sylvia. As of this morning, the ICU at Regional — (presumably) the same ICU where I spent a week after my subarachnoid hemorrhagic stroke — is full, with 66 COVID patients. 

It’s important to remember that Regional’s also the only county-designated Level II Trauma Center on this side of town. When (not if) community members have to be hospitalized for whatever — COVID, heart attacks, strokes, bad car accidents, gunshot wounds — presumably they’ll have to go elsewhere instead and/or may end up getting sub-standard care. People often quote that not many people die because of COVID (today we surpassed the 3k+ COVID deaths mark — a new record — but I guess that’s not enough?), but we fail to acknowledge all the others who are dying because there’s not enough care to go around in a pandemic.    

roger that; there is no vacancy

I read an interesting column the other day in the NYT, from a physician author, about the need to reorient our collective COVID messaging so that people — people who don’t really “get it” right now — will really begin to understand the ramifications of this virus and ultimately (hopefully!) change their behaviors. She argues that our Mr. Rogers-esque “do the right thing because it’s the right thing” messaging so far hasn’t moved the needle for so many people because, well, it’s too kind

Instead, she argues that we should go for the more disturbing, in-your-face messaging, like some of the anti-smoking videos that we all saw growing up that featured former smokers (remember those?). The author links to a COVID warning video from the State of California, hosted on the City of Cupertino’s page, that’s eerie as hell, particularly once you realize what’s going on. Maybe it’s a step in the right direction, but maybe more is warranted.  

It feels like a bit of an impossible ask: how do you get people to care? How differently can you package the same information to get people to change their minds, to change their behaviors, to give a damn about something that may potentially kill or very badly hurt themselves, someone they know, or other humans? (It’s a bit of a thought experiment as well; what would you do if you had to make these decisions?). 

from county supervisor Cindy Chavez’s email last week advertising MACLA’s virtual exhibit opening. love the message, and it really is that simple. truly.

Also in the last week, the governor announced that CANotify would go live, statewide, on 12/10; it’s the state’s opt-in exposure notification system that would serve as yet another layer in COVID prevention efforts. If you haven’t yet heard or read about the “Swiss cheese model” of pandemic defense, I’d recommend it, and then you could see how opting-in to a notification system — in addition to doing everything else that we should be doing — can help. “I don’t want more notifications on my phone” — yes, but.

But all of this ultimately goes back to one central question — one that has near-ecumnenical applicability to various aspects of our lives, over and above pandemic spread prevention: how do you get people to care

By now, I mean, we surely know that having massive, indoor house parties is all but promised to fuel the virus’s spread, but people do it anyway

We know that we should exercise, that we should move our bodies in meaningful, intentional ways, more days each week than not, but people still don’t do it as often as they should, if they do at all. 

We know that we should eat whole grains, fruits, and vegetables on a daily basis more than we do, but most of us don’t eat as healthily as we know we ought to, even if our doctors have said our health is on the line.

Surely this is sounding familiar. If knowledge is power, what do we do when people gleefully ignore said knowledge because it’s inconvenient?  

It’s beyond bizarre to me that nearly forty weeks into this pandemic — the length of a full-term pregnancy!! — we are still having this conversation and that public health officials, scientists, medical professionals, and COVID-19 survivors are still pleading with people to take it seriously.

If everything we’ve done up to this point hasn’t worked, seriously: which options remain?