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COVID, week 14 + ‘why now, white people?’

COVID, week 14 + ‘why now, white people?’

Writing these weekly summaries for the past 14 weeks now has been enlightening. Ever since last summer, when I was visiting my family for over a month and suddenly had some available time and the interest, I decided that come hell or high water, I’d force myself to publish something — anything — every Wednesday. It’s easy to write when I’m in the thick of marathon training, or racing a ton, because those types of experiences lend themselves to recapping and reflecting. Writing and running are pretty similar in that way; getting started can suck if you let yourself overthink it. The best way to become a better writer is to write (more). The best way to become a better runner? Run (more). 

I’ve got artistic neighbors <3

Anyway, like I’ve said a million times at this point, with COVID overtaking our lives, there has been both so much and so little change simultaneously (which can be disorienting, as we all can probably attest to by now), so figuring out what to write each week has sometimes felt like grasping at straws. Really, it wasn’t until the recent vociferous and necessary societal reckoning related to the plight and systemic mistreatment of Black and brown people — magnified by the recent murders of Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, and George Floyd, among others, and amplified by Black Lives Matter — that figuring out what to write week after week here in this small space became more a matter of there’s so much to potentially discuss; where do I even begin??? and less how many times can I talk about how the tacos I’m making or how my family and I aren’t leaving home unless it’s absolutely necessary. And like I’ve said in previous weeks, I think it’s a good thing. No one cares about my tacos; we have more important stuff to discuss. 

And as though the race-based reckoning weren’t enough to talk about, Monday’s Supreme Court ruling related to sex-based discrimination in the workplace — and the monumental 6-3 ruling stating that LGBT employees are covered by the civil rights law protecting employees from race, religion, or sex-based discrimination — I mean … holy crap! And especially in the age of Trump  (with two Trump-appointed judges) … holy crap! And in an election year … I mean, again, holy crap! Excessive exclamation marks!!!!

AMEN.

There’s so much going on right now, which may make it sound like there’s ever a time in society when a ton of stuff is *not* going on, which we all know is disingenuous. On part of my morning run today, I listened to the most recent episode of Code Switch aptly entitled “Why Now, White People?” It’s a short episode, as it often is — I wish their episodes were about twice as long! — but I encourage you to listen. Today’s unprecedented times (is that cliche now?) make for the perfect recipe for a whole lotta societal change. The episode is powerful and (without giving away anything) fascinating (and echoes some of Me and White Supremacy). Maybe that just gave away something.  

made me tear up for sure; explaining it to my kids even moreso <3

On the very proud mom front, as part of A’s 10-week 5k training last week, she bumped up to 1’ walk intervals for the first time (from 2’) and ran also 40 minutes for the first time (bumping up from 35-36 minutes). In the process, she also completed her first 5k(+) distance! And even better, it was in ARP, since it just opened for the first time in months last week Thursday! She was so excited to run in the park for the first time and to run for 40 minutes and to complete her 5k goal. Needless to say, it didn’t come without a lot of hard work, sweat, and the occasional tears, making the process (I think) even more gratifying for her. 

that fresh feeling of “I just ran my first 5k” accomplishment

On occupying time and settling mental unrest: 

Cooking: The other day, A and I — well really, almost 100% A by herself — made this recipe I saw in NYT, and it was super awesome and turned out great. A couple days before, she decided to make some homemade strawberry jam (and followed an experiment/recipe from one of her kitchen science/STEM-type books). Now that the girls and I (primarily G) made homemade lemonade the other day, I have a feeling we’ll be buying lots of lemons for the rest of the summer, too. It’s (messy) fun. Oh, and my aerogarden basil was on the brink of explosion last week, and this pesto that resulted was practically drinkable. 

Running: A’s 5k accomplishment, all my Janet runs, and ARP finally being open (!!!!) were the highlights of my running last week. May was a pretty heavy running month for me — over 260 miles and 14,846’ of climbing, mostly thanks to the Wolfpack vert challenge — but I imagine June will be a little lighter. We’ll see. I’m participating in Run Local’s California Coast Run the One 500 summer-long challenge to virtually “run” from LA to SF, and that just began a few weeks ago. Also, Saturday is the Mermaid Series’ virtual 5k race (for which I registered A), so she’s looking forward to that, too. While the virtual stuff is obviously not the same as the “real” stuff, I think it’s all still a lot of fun and something to look forward to — and it’s an opportunity to support local businesses — so it’s all still a win in my book. 

Reading: Last week I finished Mindy Kaling’s Why Not Me?, my “keep it light” book in the midst of reading Between the World and Me and Me and White Supremacy. I’m almost done with both those, so if you have additional reading suggestions, let me know. I’m stoked that our local libraries have begun express pick-ups from some branches, too, and I’ve put in a bunch of requests for the kids and me. Never enough time in the day for everything I want to read and listen to. 

Listening/looking forward to: When I was in Chicago last summer, I saw New Found Glory perform, and it was seriously one of the highlights of my summer. This summer, I was hoping to see them in Berkeley before we went to the midwest, but after COVID upended everything, the band decided to have a “songathon” — a 40-song (!!!) set– to promote their new album that drops this week. I am so stoked!!! It starts at 2pm PST Friday, and “ticket” (the ability to sign in and stream it live) proceeds benefit Color of Change.

what a good time (last summer)

Stay healthy, be well, read and listen, and take care. xo

COVID, week 13 and the incredibly-slow + nauseatingly-quick

COVID, week 13 and the incredibly-slow + nauseatingly-quick

COVID has brought life into a weird relationship with time, where everything seems to be progressing both incredibly slowly and nauseatingly quickly …simultaneously.

Add to the COVID backdrop the (public, private, communal, individual) reckoning related to police officers killing George Floyd (among many others, unfortunately, like Breonna Taylor or Ahmaud Arbery) and the subsequent sudden, crisis-level, ubiquitous emergence of Black Lives Matter, and hot damn, when we talk about “living history,” I think last week was one for the books.

And as I said last week, I’d argue that it’s a good thing. I should be talking to my white daughters about why Black Lives Matter and what they and we can be doing to make this world a better place for our Black and POC brothers and sisters worldwide and specifically here in the US and SJ. All of us should be talking, listening, learning and committing to change because all of us are imperfect and live in an imperfect society.   

That said, talking to your kids about police brutality, or racism, or why Black Lives Matter (and what that means) can be a little more fraught than talking to them about something a bit less nuanced, like, say, why they should not lick streetpoles (or other stupid and gross stuff kids do). I’m not a parenting expert, nor do I want to tell other people how to parent their kids, but I’d argue that all of us should be talking to our children candidly about all of this stuff on developmentally-appropriate levels. My four year-old doesn’t necessarily know what “racism” or “white supremacy” means, for example, but she does know what it means when something is fair or unfair. Obviously it’s not the same, but it’s a start, and we can continue the conversation as she grows up. My nine year-old understands everything much more profoundly, so we’ve been talking about everything a lot more and in better detail and nuance. She has also been reading about it in her issues of The Week Junior, so she has the contextual understanding (or at least the beginnings of it) to know that none of it is an isolated incident.

I believe that we owe it to our kids to try to break or at the very least, diminish, the insidious racist and white supremacist cycle that has predated our (parenting or otherwise) existence in this country; inaction here is complicity. The conversation can’t change if we don’t bring it up and talk about it.

we have matching shirts 🙂 (and C’s says “Napman”)

Having the conversations (plural), doing the internal work, educating ourselves (and our progeny), financially supporting organizations and/or individuals doing valuable, meaningful work in the field so we can all do better — I think all of that is more valuable than simply throwing up a black square on IG or making a grandiose statement online. Theatrics are just that after all, theatrics. 

So when everyone is going through a reckoning about how so many of our brothers and sisters in humanity have been treated — how we, ourselves, may have been inadvertently, unknowingly, unconsciously treating them — and millions of people are continuing to get sick and die of a novel coronavirus, as has been the case for 13 weeks, how the hell do we talk or read or write about anything else?

Conveniently, as is the case with running and marathoning: we pace ourselves.

We cannot burn ourselves out because the work is too important; our commitment must be lifelong. Something, every day, will be more far-reaching than a lot all at once and then nothing for indefinitely thereafter. Be the tortoise, not the hare. 

So here we are, thirteen weeks into COVID-dominated life, and SJ began to “open up” a bit last week, with last week Friday being the first day that in-person retail and al fresco dining could open. My family and I aren’t chomping at the bits to go out to eat or go shopping in an enclosed space with tons of other people (tbh that sounds like hell rn), so life around these parts hasn’t changed a lot. For my eldest, mid-week last week we learned that her swim team would be resuming practice soon (contingent on permission from the health department) with all types of modifications in place, so she has been counting down the days until she can be back in the (outdoor) pool. Swim lessons for the youngest can’t yet resume because of how high-contact it is between students and teachers (since they’re in the water with the kids, versus the coaches being on deck for team practice). It was also within the last week that the county announced that families can spend time with other families with whom they don’t reside, preferably outdoors, socially-distanced, and in very small groups (like two families together, tops). It’s all a start and comes at a pretty good time, too, since the kids’ last day of school was last week Friday. 

Camp MOM is in full effect! 

first vs. last day of 3rd grade and preschool (oh, my heart!)

On occupying time and settling mental unrest: 

Cooking: If the front half of COVID was all about tacos, I think I’ve transitioned from that delicacy to homemade hummus. I feel like my blood is part hummus at this point. It’s so good (falafel, too, but that’s more work). However, I have to give a hard pass on dessert hummus; I was sad (also very pissed!) that I lost an entire can of chickpeas to that effort. Never again.  

Running: My running continues to be of the however long I want/however fast I want/whenever I want mentality, which is just lovely. Wolfpack is having a monthlong elevation challenge in June, so it has been fun to try to go a little out of my way each day to get some hills in … or not, again, depending on how I feel. A’s 5k training is going well, and she just recently began cracking 3 miles on our runs together. She’s about to have her run/walk ratios change, too, so it has been pretty cool for her to see how she’s getting faster and stronger. She wiped out on our run on Monday and got a small road rash from it, but she got up and finished, bloody knee and all. Some days are harder for her than others — as is the case for any of us — but she has kept at it. We’re at about week 7 of a 10-week program for her. I’m so proud.

Oh! And good news: Janet and I began running together again last weekend! That was another item that the health department said was ok (exercising outdoors with people with whom you don’t reside, socially distanced, that sort of thing). I know that some people had already begun exercising with their friends (or that they hadn’t stopped… ), but I didn’t want to take any chances and played by the rules all along. It has been *so* nice to be back with her!! 

from my first run with Janet in months! (and I took a pic of the scenery, lol)

Last week Boston also announced that the rescheduled September date was cancelled — making this year’s race a virtual endeavor — which, while not surprising, was still gutting to a lot of people. Who knows what will happen for Boston 2021 (or any races in the early parts of the year, for the matter). Global Running Day was also last week, but in the big scheme of the aforementioned personal/individual/global/societal unrest surrounding Black Lives Matter and COVID, it seemed like it wasn’t nearly as big a deal as it usually is.  

Listening: So many podcasts, not enough time. I especially recommended the most recent episode of Keeping Track with Alison Désir,  and KT’s earlier episode with Sally Kipyego. The most recent three or four episodes on NPR’s Code Switch podcast were also really interesting and pretty heartbreaking. Lauren Fleshman and Jesse Thomas’ Work Play Love most recent episode was pretty fascinating, too. I’ve added a handful of new podcasts to my queue within the past couple weeks, but if you have some to share, please do! (I think I will need to start running doubles daily so I have an opportunity to hear them all, unless I will just begin wearing earbuds constantly around my kids, ha). 

Reading: I didn’t know who Samantha Irby was, but when I saw her newest book of essays (Wow, No Thank You.) on my library’s ebooks homepage, I thought eh, what the hell, I like essays. She is so funny, and disgusting (in the best possible way – I mean, my heart goes out to anyone who has to write about inconvenient bowel habits because damn, I get it), and honestly I looked forward to going to bed each night because it was the last thing I read before shutting my eyes (and I tried to muffle my laughter each night so as to not wake up my better half). I’m also now in the process of reading Me and White Supremacy, Between the World and Me, and Mindy Kaling’s Why Not Me?, tempering the heavy with the light. I hope that I can finish all of them before they’re due because other people are waiting for them (good, but dang! Pressure is on). Oh, and I also subscribed to Layla Saad’s podcast but haven’t listened to it yet. The kids and I knocked off another few novels in the last couple weeks, too — mostly Beverly Cleary stuff and Bean & Ivy books — and I’ve been doing a deep dive into age- and developmentally-appropriate more diverse lit beyond the stuff they’re most familiar with. (There’s *so* much good stuff out there, much more than I knew about).

Stuff Your Kids Can Do: Make some bath bombs. It’s messy (good for outdoors) but fun, and it makes bath time a bit more entertaining. Summer project? Sure. We did it during homeschooling, too, and they had a lot of fun with it. 

Looking Forward to: …tomorrow (Thursday) ARP opens!!!!! I am so excited to go back to run there!!! 

Have a good rest of your week, stay healthy, be well, read and listen, and take care. xo