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BioFreeze San Francisco Marathon 5k & Second Half Marathon Race Report (July 2019) – SF, CA

BioFreeze San Francisco Marathon 5k & Second Half Marathon Race Report (July 2019) – SF, CA

Though I had known since winter (or thereabouts) that I would be running the BioFreeze San Francisco Marathon in late July — in what would be my sixth year as a social media ambassador for the race and my fifth go at the marathon course — I didn’t particularly begin training for it until the fam and I were in the midwest in mid-June. Back in the day, I used to run marathons in back-to-back fashion, so I figured having ~6 weeks between MTB and SF would be more than enough to train and race both well. 

good times in Ojai to Ventura

Aaaaaaaaand yeah. For whatever reason — and I have my theories — training in Illinois and later, in Ohio, for the six weeks preceding SF this time around was extremely difficult. After a lot of reflection (and a lot of text messaging), I made the decision to step down from the SF marathon and instead take on the second half. Even though I knew stepping down was the best decision in the figurative and literal long run, I still felt somewhat conflicted about it and as though I were squandering the opportunity that the race gave me. 

post-very (very) humid LR in Ohio

The kids and I arrived back in California just a couple days before race weekend, making the weekend feel like it came fast and furiously and seemingly, out of nowhere. This year’s race weekend featured a 5k shakeout race on Saturday (in addition to the usual one on Sunday), so come early Saturday morning, I hauled north to SF to run the 5k for fun before working at the expo from 12-5.

Sandwiched between the Saturday 5k and working all afternoon was meeting up with Chicago friend Erin and her husband for tea; I hadn’t seen Erin since she was last here in ‘14 to run the race, so it was really great to catch up. By not having a marathon staring me down on Sunday morning, I wasn’t worried at all about running a 5k on Saturday, hanging with my friend, and then being on my feet all afternoon. 

loved catching up with Erin B. on Saturday, post-shakeout. we go all the way back to Boston ’09 training in Chicago


super fun meeting many (but not all!) of this year’s ambassador crew before/during/after the shakeout on Saturday. You know you’re in SF when it’s late July and everyone is wearing long sleeves. (PC: Elysha)

Meeting up with many of the other SF ambassadors on Saturday pre- and post-shakeout was really sweet. Anne and I were both doing the Saturday shakeout for fun (and both running the second half on Sunday), so we simply smiled the miles on Saturday and ran our mouths all morning long. It’s so funny how the internet has made the running community so small and personal. 

catching-up with Anne throughout the 5k shakeout was just the way I wanted to begin the SFM weekend.
evidently I’m very excited to see someone. gotta love the black tops/black bottoms “i’m wearing a leotard” look
clearly, Anne and I are taking the shakeout seriously (jazz hands and dance arms for everyone!)

Helping Elysha and filling in wherever I could made the day go by really quickly, and by 5pm, I was beginning to lose my voice after talking to runners all day long in the screenprinting booth (which was a bit of a hot mess but still pretty fun, except that one time an angry runner accused those of us in the screenprinting booth of discriminating against him and threatened “to tweet about it.” (SMH)).  At any rate, it’s pretty impressive how many people come from all over the world to run one of the SF races, and it’s very cool to see so many people so amped about running. The enthusiasm is contagious.

Given that I wasn’t running the marathon on Sunday (and doing the requisite 3am wakeup for a 5:30 start), I opted to drive back home to sleep in my own bed and simply do the SJ-SF drive twice, instead of crashing at Erin’s for the weekend. The late 3am/early 4am wakeup two consecutive days wasn’t as bad as I anticipated, and not having any time goals at all for the half really lifted any pressure to perform; I simply looked at the race as a long run — perhaps my first for XC and CIM training — surrounded by a whole lot of friends. I didn’t care how fast or how slowly I ran; my only purpose was to run. 

Anne and I easily connected again in Golden Gate Park before the race’s start, but since we had different race plans (she to pace a teammate to a ~1:34, me to simply smile the miles and finish), we parted ways as we entered the corrals. Prior to race day, I hadn’t done a long run since my 20-miler on July 11th, and my weekly run volume had been quite low when I was in Ohio due to a whole host of reasons (weather, childcare, helping my family, all good stuff). I knew that I’d be able to cover the distance aerobically, but in terms of my pace, I had no idea and figured I’d post around a 1:50 fairly comfortably. 

There was a time in my life when I’d intentionally register for races and run them all as training runs or workouts, but it’s not really something I’ve done in recent history, probably because I’m more judicious with my time and finances than before. There’s no doubt in my mind, however, that running the second half for fun was the right choice to make; I knew I wasn’t in any real shape or fitness to speak of, and I didn’t want to wreck myself for no real good reason. I planned to simply try to smile during every single mile and enjoy the SF course in an entirely different way than I usually do when I race the marathon. 

somewhere in GGP in the earlier part of the course

As far as I can tell, the second half’s course this year is the same as it has always been during the previous years when I’ve run the full. Just like last year, this time around, we didn’t loop around Stow Lake, and we spent nearly half the HM running in what seemed like never-ending, dizzying back-and-forths in GGP. I swear that sometimes it seems like running in GGP is akin to running in some weird Twilight Zone dimension; I always feel like we spend so much time there (especially during the marathon!) that one of these days I’m going to drop a birthday while we’re in there. 

I was so eagerly waiting to be spit out from GGP atop Haight Street because I knew I’d see Erin soon (and because it’d mark about the halfway point); once I saw her walking her dog, I didn’t hesitate and zoomed over to the left side of the road to accost her with a huge, sweaty hug. Any time I’ve seen her during the marathon, I’ve only given so much as a wave or a holler; this time around, since time wasn’t an issue, I made a full detour and stopped to chat for a few. For real! I stopped mid-race to talk and just let my Garmin keep running. What a way to run! 

ERIN I LUV U THIS MUCHHHHHHH (PC: Erin S.)

It’s hard to give much of a turn-by-turn account of what was essentially a training run dressed up as a race — especially since the course was the same that I’ve run several times now — but it was fun, and all the usual water stop groups were out in force on what was a strangely warm-for-SF and sunny day. I repeatedly thought I’m so glad I’m not running a marathon today and I’m so glad I turned down that 1:45 pacing opportunity throughout my 13.1 sojourn, making me even more confident that I had made the right decision; it was great to only be responsible for myself and no one else. My body felt tired way earlier than usual — that’s what happens when you train very lightly, kids! — but there was nothing on the line; no A, B, or C goals; nothing. Just run. 

looks like another shot from somewhere in the never-ending GGP

I wanted to enjoy my supported long run, and I did. I squeaked in with a 1:49, right around where I figured and I would, and I both started and finished the race with a smile on my face. It was a pretty straightforward and victorious morning. 

Seeing Elysha, ambassador manager extraordinaire, in the finish line chute was delightful. Clearly I’m still taking all of this v seriously. (PC: Elysha)

Shortly after I finished, I headed over to Marketbar to take advantage of the VIP Party (breakfast! A change of clothes! Real bathrooms!) and eventually met up with Meredith, who had run the 5k, and her friend, Katie, who had run the first half. They graciously gave me a ride back over to Erin’s, where I’d hang for the afternoon at her baby non-shower shower. 

costume change & Erin (Erins?) time (PC: Martha)

As usual, seeing many friends over the context of a race weekend was energizing (4am wakeups be damned), and when everything was said and done, my cup felt very full. Suffice it to say that I slept very well Sunday night.

The SFM has held a special place in my heart since moving here because it was through the ambassador program in ‘14 that I met some of my first friends in California. Because the running community here is so small — and social media makes it even more so — the networks formed from that initial ambassador program have led me to even more people throughout the ~six years my family and I have lived here. If I wanted to, I think I could probably trace many of my current CA friendships back to that ambassador program, Kevin Bacon-style. 

I know we should never say never, but I think 2019 will be the last time I run SF for a while and participate in the race’s ambassador program. I think it’s time that I share this special race’s love with others and let someone else experience it for herself/himself; it’s kinda the same way I feel about not returning to Boston for a long time (share the love! Let someone else take a turn!). Plus, pragmatically speaking, as my kids get older, and our summers become more full, training in earnest for a big mid-summer race is getting harder to manage. Impossible? No. Challenging? Extremely. 

By virtue of being a loyal runner (having run the race, in some capacity, in ‘10, ‘14, ‘15, ‘17, ‘18, and now), I earned a special “loyal runner” medal at the race, in addition to the one from Saturday’s shakeout 5k, Sunday’s half, and also in addition to the 5k+HM double medal (that I failed to pick-up, whoops). If you’re into collecting race medals, SF is usually a pretty good bet. As usual, the race offered a quality long-sleeve technical premium, and runners also had lots of opportunities to get additional premiums (such as beanies, arm warmers, or quarter zip-ups) based on which discount code they used during registration. I really like the quarter zip I earned from the ambassador program and foresee using it during the winter running months. 

I think this race does a great job of taking care of its runners (and its ambassadors), and I think it’s a race that’ll continue to improve over time. Probably the most noticeable change in this year’s race was switching from nuun to Gen UCan, and holy moly, my stomach and I sure were ecstatic for that!  

Obviously, the second half marathon has a fraction of the elevation from the full (#math), but I think it can still be conducive to fast times, particularly if you’re accustomed to undulating courses. We had weird, warm weather this year, but usually it’s much more mild and is probably the only late-July race in the entire country where you can find runners routinely wearing long sleeves and tights. (No doubt they were hot this year). 

SF’s a fantastic and difficult race — arguably one of the most challenging marathons I’ve ever done — and also one of my favs. There’s something to be said for working really, really hard, and this race (and any of its distance offerings) sure is an excellent avenue for that. 

It’s a little bittersweet to run a race knowing that I’m not planning to run it again anytime soon, but my several years’ worth of race memories from SFM are quite fond. I’m grateful for the experiences for sure.

2019 Mountains to Beach Marathon Race Report (May 2019) – Ojai to Ventura, CA

2019 Mountains to Beach Marathon Race Report (May 2019) – Ojai to Ventura, CA

Since moving to California at the end of 2013, I’ve heard positive raves repeatedly about a few races: CIM in December, the Santa Cruz edition of she.is.beautiful 5k/10k, the Wharf to Wharf six-miler in Santa Cruz, and finally, Mountains to Beach marathon. I’ve run almost all of those races at least once by now, so I decided to dust off my spring marathon racing shoes and go for broke at MTB over Memorial Day weekend. 

Training for a late spring marathon in northern California isn’t as trying as it is in other places of the country (read: it’s just rain…), and logistically, training for a late spring marathon made a lot of sense since Janet was training for her first Boston that’d fall just about a month before MTB. Plus, she had run MTB last year (Erica, too, and I was there to see it!), so I could glean a lot from her and many of my other teammates about how to train well to race well on the course. I continued to work with Coach Lisa, picking up where we left off from CIM, and I was enthusiastic to see how everything would go down on this course that I had heard so much about. 

running with Janet at last year’s MTB

Tl; dr: Not a PR but a solid day (3:25) for my 34th marathon, despite stopping twice to poop and despite (because of?) a training cycle that necessitated my best Life Tetris-ing yet

Writing a marathon race recap months ex-post-facto isn’t the wisest when it comes to capturing the real-deal, raw, and vulnerable feelings, but I think the distance (appropriately) is actually pretty helpful when it comes to evaluating things with a deeper, wider lens. The long and short of it is that I drove five hours south sola — I tried to convince the family to come, but the kids weren’t interested — to run well, fast, strong, and ultimately (hopefully) to PR. My 2018 marathons (SF, CIM) left me convinced that my best marathon is still ahead of me, and dammit if I haven’t been determined to reach it. 

Aside from the beautiful drive south, the race’s relative accessibility from San Jose, the flurry of local friends I knew who’d be racing (including Erica and her Chicago gaggle!), the low entry fee for registering last fall, and the aforementioned I-had-a-training-partner-all-winter aspect, I was intrigued to run MTB because of the actual course. As its name suggests, runners start higher up, in super cute Ojai, and slowly work their way down the mountains via roads and paved trails before ending next to the ocean in Ventura. In other words, it’s supposed to be fast *and* pretty.

Like CIM, MTB is known for producing lots of BQs, PRs, and fast times, yet unlike CIM, MTB has far more net downhill than up (by my Garmin, something along the lines of a 1200’ loss and only a 475’ gain). Aside from CIM, I haven’t run a seriously downhill course in a long time, so I was intrigued by the challenge. I hadn’t trained for a spring marathon since Modesto ‘16, when I was about 7 months postpartum, so I was really looking forward to it. 

Going into MTB, I felt as strong as ever and was satisfied, if not proud, of how I managed my training alongside the 9783496 other balls I had up in the air all winter and spring. On race morning, it’s always so inspiring to me to look around at the sea of humanity and acknowledge that in order for all of us to get there, we had to make.shit.happen for weeks and months preceding The Big Day. Everyone has different or more/fewer numerous balls in the air, but rarely can any of us amateurs go all-in on our little marathon hobby at the expense of everything else. We do the best we can, and hopefully along the way, we learn how to become good Managers of Stuff because chances are high that on race day, we’ll be put in a situation — possibly situations, plural — that we didn’t see coming and whose reaction can make or break our race. 

Anyway, fortunately on race morning, I toed the line in Ojai without any niggles or injuries to speak of; the most significant bodily qualm that had plagued me for most of my training was (surprise, surprise) my stomach. Another change in GIs brought about a different plan of care and (surprise, surprise) a different diagnosis, so the best I could do was hope for the best and if things went south — read: if my bowels showed up to party, despite my pharmacological interventions to prevent that from happening — well, hope for a porta-potty or at the very least, tree cover.

Meredith (who was running the half) and her boyfriend graciously hosted me in their hotel when my own canceled my reservation when I was ten minutes away from arriving (!!), and those fine human beings also graciously got up with me at an ungodly 3am hour and dropped me off in downtown Ventura to catch a yellow school bus northeast. Nearly as soon as I arrived at the starting line, I met up with Erica and her many friends from all over the country (seriously, Erica is like the mayor of the midwest/east coast running community) to hang a bit before the show got on the road. Very soon after I returned to the starting line with Erica and company, I ran into my Wolfpack teammates Oscar and Mark who were out to have a good time (Oscar) and to run their first marathon (Mark). It was hard not to be in a good mood wearing lycra and spandex and galavanting around Ojai before 6 a.m.

forever grateful and indebted to these fine humans who let me crash their getaway when my hotel decided that canceling my reservation (that I had made six+ months prior) was perfectly acceptable
this was at approximately 3:30a.m. on race morning. My very colorful get-up pre-race had me lookin like a court jester or something. PC: JT

The race? As promised, it was a lot of downhill — more uncomfortable than I would have anticipated, to be honest — making the occasional uphills particularly welcomed. I saw my teammates and friends within the first 5k, during a quick out-and-back, and I was heeding Lisa’s race plan as much as I could: stay in control, don’t demolish on the downhills, trust the training, it’s a good day to have a good day

circa mile 6, heading out of Ojai (thanks for the free pics!)
running is great; running is fun

I was absolutely that runner in a sea other sub/mid-3:20 racers who was thanking the volunteers, the cops, the EMTs, whomever because I was so dang calm and so in it that I had no mental real estate for doubt, or worry, or the inevitable race-day existential crises about why do I do these things again?

There was no where else I should have been on that morning except right there, on those roads, heading south to the beach, getting there literally by putting one foot in front of the other, hundreds of thousands of times.

I still get nervous before marathons — usually of the “excited nervous” variety — but for whatever reason, at MTB, I was as chill as I would be before a (very) long weekend LR. 

circa mile 9; I had just exited the porta-potty a couple strides prior for my false alarm, haha

That’s not to say that it wasn’t hard because it most definitely was. Aerobically, I knew I was prepared to handle the distance, but just like in other recent races, bodily I felt strong, but I didn’t feel fast. Paces that I knew I hit routinely in hard training runs seemed to necessitate a farther reach than I thought prudent to give, and a GI psych around mile 8 gave me reason to hop into a porta-potty to make sure I wasn’t on the verge of shitting myself and wearing it for 18 miles (yikes). By mile 12 I knew that a PR was off the table — again, I felt strong, but the speed was nowhere to be seen — so the game changed from sub-3:20 like a boss to comfortably sub-3:30 and finish the race with unfinished business. My stomach showed up to party for real at mile 16 (fun fact: I only lost 100 seconds to two bathroom stops!), but honestly, aside from the GI nuisances and the relative lack of speed that I thought I was ready to post, I felt like I ran a strong race, and I’m proud of myself for staying in it and not mentally checking-out. I smiled widely and yelled obnoxiously when I saw friends mid-race or on the sidelines, and I legit let out an audible HOLY SHIT, THIS PLACE IS SO PRETTY at various times mid-race as we were all grinding along. 

around mile 17. mentally still hanging and just taking in the surroundings.
probably the best bib number I’ve ever had for a marathon
circa mile 18.5; we really lucked out with the weather (super overcast, periodically raining, not that warm).

Finishing a marathon with a smile on your face and proud of the effort you posted — regardless if it’s the PR/BQ/time you wanted to see — is an amazing feeling and makes the hours and hundreds/thousands of miles’ worth of training absolutely worth it. We can control our attitude and our effort; knowing this makes racing and running hard liberating. 

seeing Meredith and J right before the finish line and laughing at their antics (PC: M)
finish line feels. I don’t remember this picture being taken.

There is something incredible about covering 26.2 miles by your own volition and managing what oftentimes is a shitshow of feelings, if not also bodily challenges, for a few hours on some given weekend morning. In most of the 34 marathons I’ve run, at any given point throughout the 26.2 journey, I have retired from running, added to my list of “marathons to do in my lifetime,” wondered why I do this to myself, wondered why I didn’t start doing this to myself earlier, never felt more alive, envisioned fetal positioning on the road, and so on. 

wearing Birks at the post-race party and being too lazy to replace my shorts with my pants, so the pants legs became arm warmers instead (PC: M)

This distance is revelatory in its ability to showcase us at both our best and our worst,  as well as our concomitant capacity to just feeeeeeeeel. It’s also good for pulling back the curtain on the potential that resides deep inside — not only for ourselves as runners but more importantly, for ourselves as human beings. What do we do when shit gets hard? How do we manage ourselves when we’re feeling like we’re spiraling? How do we serve others in their moment of need, regardless of how we feel at the time?    

This distance also has a great propensity to lend itself to over-analysis, waxing philosophic, and the crunchiest of crunchy hippie-dippie runner shit; I’m as guilty of it as anyone. It’s far easier to write about marathoning than it is to actually do the thing. 

In a way, it’s funny because I finished SF ‘18 in 3:26, feeling like I had been hit by a truck (and underperformed); then I posted 3:24 at CIM ‘18, feeling completely gutted by yet another disappointing underperformance; yet MTB’s 3:25 left me with a smile on my face and nothing but pride in myself and in my ability to just.handle.it when my race unfolded far more sideways than I anticipated. 

On the clock’s face, very little distinguishes these three marathons from each other, but in the greater picture of my lifetime marathon trajectory, these three races couldn’t be more different. Ultimately, I think it goes back to a lot of what Dr. and David Roche talked about in The Happy Runner: namely, at the end of the day, none of us are getting out of here alive. Zoom out, my friends, and choose your stressors and suffering wisely. Don’t squander the opportunity or the gift. 

Post-race, Meredith, her boyfriend, and I hung for a while at the finish line and cheered in more runners before meeting-up with Erica and her gaggle at her friend’s beautiful home. We shared war stories from the morning, commiserated at the debacle that is having to poop mid-race, and began scheming for the 2020 iteration. (I already registered). 🙂 Before long, I was on the road again and made it home for bedtime (after making a side trip to Cayucos for cookies for the family, of course). 

she’s my inspiration! MTB was my 34th full and 22nd BQ and probably her bazillionith and bazillionith. love love love Erica! & what a gorgeous place we got to hang at post-race.

The MTB marathon is an excellent option for runners who are looking to notch a fast time or who are interested in simply running through some pretty, albeit rural-ish, locales. Late May in the central coast can be iffy in terms of weather (we actually got rained on a little, whereas in previous years, including in ‘18, it got pretty warm), but then again, the weather is iffy for any race, anywhere, at any time. Race logistics like porta-potties, shuttles, and the like seemed to go over swimmingly (though they’d probably stand to benefit from more potties at the start line), but if you’re looking for a big, busy marathon, this one is probably too low-key for you. Crowds are sparse but enthusiastic, particularly once you get into Ventura over the last ~10k of the race, and at least if you’re local to the Bay Area, you’ll probably be able to easily find training partners during the winter (ahem, Wolfpack!) because it seems like just about every local runner trains for MTB’s full or half at least once. This race does a bang-up job, and I’m already looking forward to running those roads again on both strong and fast legs in May ‘20. 

team love with Oscar, Mark, and Alex down in Ventura! (PC: @runwolfpack)