After the awe-inspiring and fantastic Olympics trials this weekend, all I can say is wow.
Where do you even begin, or how do we even start, to unpack everything that went down?
So many stories, so many victories and upsets and surprises — it’s incredible.
shamelessly screenshot from @runwolfpack; Julie, we are all so jazzed for you!
I’m in the throes of the book The Joy of Movement right now, and I find myself nodding my head in agreement and quietly muttering hell yeah! to so much of what author Kelly McGonigal says. There is serious, practically indelible power that arises from people working together, and wow… the marathon, and the Olympic trials in particular, is such a fantastic backdrop to it. The we-agency rolled DEEP!
Who could have ever thought that the simple act of meaningfully moving our bodies — and in concert with someone else — could have such profound, life-altering effects?
forever better when we work together (from last weekend’s meet)
Short on time and sleep at the moment, but more to come next week on the subject (hopefully by then I’ll have wrapped up the book and will have more to say).
Mega congrats to everyone who earned their chance to toe the line last weekend in Atlanta; you make us all so proud!
How January is already behind us and that fewer than 100 days stand between my first marathon of the year and me is mind-boggling. January brought with it a solid month of training, with a handful of days off (most of them while we were in the Dominican Republic with family at the beginning of the month). Since school and life as usual resumed earlier in the month, everything seems to be rolling along at its usual frenetic pace.
January: ~209 miles; ~10,200′ vert; lots and lots of smiles (PC: Janet)
To this day, it’s still such a bizarre thing to talk about when it comes up in conversation because the topic brings with it an onslaught of questions that I don’t necessarily feel like entertaining.
All I can say — rather unhelpfully — is that weird shit happens every single day of the year, to people all over the world, and sometimes without a lot of reason or explanation. On February 4th, 2018, something weird happened to me. That said, without question, I was one of the extremely lucky ones.
The fragility, sanctity, and gift of life is something that I think has always been at the forefront of my mind, in some capacity, thanks to the media that I regularly consume. Even still, since having that major health emergency two years ago — as well as the truly life-changing experiences of being pregnant, giving birth and raising children — at the risk of sounding super crunchy, there are so many times now in my day-to-day life where I often wish I could somehow capture a moment or feeling forevermore.
Breathing it in isn’t enough; I want to bottle it.
I feel it when I run, regardless of pace or distance, but especially on those special days that Csikszentmihalyi talks about, when it all just flows, and there’s no stopping or limit imaginable. As a runner in my mid-30s now, who has been doing this long stuff for over a decade, I have more mileage and speed in my legs than I could have ever imagined when I began it all in earnest in 2007. Lindsay Crouse’s recent NYT opinion piece really resonated with me (and with so many others), and like she said, there are runs that happen where I finish and all but let out a HELL YEA! I JUST DID THAT! because I’m in disbelief at what my body just produced. Not knowing the end limit of my potential is really exciting and is enough to get me out the door each day to strive.
I feel it with my children, even in the most inane circumstances of our day-to-day. The best way I can describe it is that sometimes I watch them talking to me — and I hear them, and I see their mouths moving — but it’s as though I’m watching from above. I am just in utter amazement that we created these two beings and that they are growing every day and figuring out the world in their own way, but they still need us in ways that they can’t always describe or ask. I am immeasurably proud of them for who they are becoming as individuals, and watching it unfold some days all but takes my breath away.
I’ve heard it said before that having children is like having your heart and soul on the outside, or something like that, and man, that’s right. Raising children is truly harder than any job I’ve ever had or degree I’ve ever earned. That said, it’s so deeply gratifying (and frustrating at times, of course) that I swear that I can feel it on a cellular level.
Wanting to freeze time to capture a moment and feeling isn’t limited just to running or to my kids, of course. There are so many instances with my husband, with my own parents and siblings and in-laws and family members, and with my friends where, when we all part to go our own separate ways, the feeling that I have in my chest is just indescribably satisfying.
The shit-eating grin marks and crow’s feet lines just get deeper; I’m okay with that.
This is all getting way more crunchy and embarrassing than I was going for — my bad — but I guess given the experience that I had two years ago and what I could have had, it’s damn near impossible to not be a little (a lot) reflective at this time of year.
Waking up each day grateful to have woken up at all and to be given another day of life is enough.
