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April 2018 Training Recap

April 2018 Training Recap

The difference a month can make is pretty incredible. In my March training recap, I opined that all month long, I was hoping that things — running and life in general — would continue to feel like normal and that I could put all the “stroke stuff,” for lack of a better phrase, behind me. A month later, now heading into May, I am ecstatic to say that as far as I am concerned, life is — and feels — normal.

normal.

A mental shift occurred sometime this past month — fortunately — because until then, as irrational as it is, I often entered each weekend feeling a bit anxious and scared and just stewing on the fact that OMG X number of weeks ago today was the stroke. X number of weeks ago was when everything got upended. It was as though I was dreading each Sunday because it was on a Sunday that the stroke happened, as though somehow, Sunday rolling around each week again was going to put me at a greater risk for future strokes (irrational, right?). (Imagine what it must have felt like to drive back to Sacramento, on a Sunday, for a race in early April, since that was the same setting just a handful of weeks earlier when I actually had the stroke). Anyway. Sometime this past month, some sort of transition happened. I went from sorta fearing the weekends to a couple days ago, on the last Sunday of April, actually looking at a calendar and realizing oh. It has been 12 weeks, three months in a few days. Okay. I don’t want to overstate the importance of this mentality shift, but I have a hunch it’s pretty damn important for my post-stroke psychological recovery. It’s beginning to feel less like it happened and more like it was just a weird-ass, very life-like dream.

hello to downtown SJ behind us, from Sunday’s 18 miler up in the ARP foothills. It wasn’t until I was home and done with this run that I realized that for once, I hadn’t at all stewed over the otherwise mundane fact that it was a Sunday. I smell progress. (PS, people in this picture are training for marathons, Ironmans, a World Championship 50 miler and representing a country in the process, and a 100 miler! I feel like a slacker)

…that is, until I talk to insurance each week. The insurance company and I have this completely ridiculous song-and-dance routine that consists of me calling them each week, usually on Thursday, to find out the status of a bunch of outstanding claims. I am literally on a first-name basis with two different insurance reps at this point, women who are “handling” my “case” while things get “investigated” or “researched.” Eyeroll, eyeroll, eyeroll. As you can imagine, I satisfied our family deductible pretty quickly by being in ICU for a week, but because of some mistake somewhere — honestly, what I’m guessing amounts to someone’s clerical error — insurance thinks that I’m going to pay in the upwards of $15k out of pocket for costs that they are claiming were out-of-network but weren’t because of that whole emergent care detail that supersedes everything else. Yeah, nope. 

I am usually pretty excellent about compartmentalizing my life — be it family stuff, school stuff, Girl Scout stuff, stroke stuff, running stuff, whatever — but my weekly insurance call is the one time that I can’t *not* think about the fact that yeah, no, that stroke thing apparently wasn’t a dream; it actually did happen. While I luckily don’t have the physical repercussions from it, I still get to deal with insurance bullshit until The Unknown Person(s) gets their act together and fixes things. It’s so very annoying.

There was a time not that long ago when talking to insurance each week would wreck me and leave me pretty emotionally distraught; friends, let me assure you, you haven’t lived until you’ve cried on the phone with a health insurance company because you’re so enraged over someone else’s incompetence. I could go so long without thinking about or ruminating over the fact that this bad thing happened to me, but lo and behold, every week when I’d make this phone call, reality struck me in the face and reminded me that it wasn’t all a bad dream. In fact, for many weeks post-stroke, it would take the better part of the day the work up the gall to make the call to find out WTF was going on. Honestly, sometimes I’d only phone in if I were having a shitty day in the first place because talking to Those People all but promised to put me in a sour mood for the rest of the day. These days, fortunately, the tears have turned more to the direction of action (and anger, for better or worse), compelling me to stay on the phone on hold in the upwards of an hour+ if need be so someone, anyone, The Unknown Person(s), can get this crap straight. It’s amazing what we can accomplish when we’re put on hold, gang!

This whole ordeal is so, so frustrating and infuriating, but if bitching about insurance 3 months after having a stroke that could have ended me is the only thing that I’m complaining about, then I have it pretty good. It angers me to no end though that this is what we apparently have to do in the United States in the year 2018. There is so much that is so profoundly wrong with this situation.  

In other random bodily systems news, with our insurance switch in 2018 came all new providers, and included in that mix was a new GI for me. Long story short, she completely refuted my former GI’s microscopic colitis diagnosis, so in the past month, I’ve begun another battery of tests to figure out WTF is going on with my insides at any given time. So far it sounds like my intestines are about on the same level as that of a newborn; basically, my guts are just hyper little bastards that don’t ever apply the brakes when they should, amounting to a vicious eat-then-poop-eat-then-poop cycle all the time. You’re welcome. More tests throughout May should help elucidate things a bit.

filed under things I’d rather not do again: chug barium

But in the running compartment of my life — which is what we’re all here for, anyway, right? — April was really good to me. I posted just over 180 miles for the month (183), raced at the Sactown 10 miler, the Silicon Valley half, the Food Truck 5k (taking third!), and started building my long runs in earnest (on trails!) with Janet as she ramped up her MTB training. Meeting and running with Meb was as awesome as I had hoped it would be, too. Nestled in the mix of all my own running this month was my eldest daughter’s Kids’ Race at the Food Truck 5k as well as her first triathlon of 2018 this past weekend (RR forthcoming!), so suffice it to say that weekends were fairly busy, yet super gratifying, in mi casa.

from the kids’ race at the SV half weekend

 

finishing up a 16 miler in ARP and honing those ever-important “taking selfies while running” skillz

The end of April and beginning of May also marked the beginning of SF Marathon training, which is pretty exciting. I feel like I’m in a good place physically and mentally at this point and look forward to training and to seeing what I can do this cycle. Marathon training cycles can often be great teachers, and I’m just elated to begin the grind again.

 

Reading: There’s a lot of really good stuff out there right now. I really enjoyed Endure and wrote a recap of it earlier in the month. Tara Westover’s Educated was also really good but also incredibly sad and pretty disturbing, if you ask me; honestly, I was pretty pissed most of the time I read the book (but I’ll refrain from saying anything so as to avoid spoilers). I’ve gotten through most of Meb for Mortals since Meb signed a copy for me and like it a lot as a solid resource for training, though it’s not exactly something you’d read all the way through as you would a regular book. In the past couple days, I’ve also started Deena Kastor’s Let Your Mind Run, which I’ve really enjoyed and will likely recap sometime in May. Maria Shriver’s I’ve Been Thinking has been satisfactory so far, and I’ve really liked Enlightenment Now, though I think I’m going to have to renew it several times before I actually finish it.

major life points unlocked

Life: Lots of running but also lots of fun and exciting family and home stuff was the norm for April: enjoying spring break with the kids at home; getting new floors and replacing our beat-up carpeting; flying down to LA to see my childhood BFF for about 18 hours; following along from afar the craziness that was Marathon Monday; and surely more that I’m forgetting. April was the beginning of the end of the school-year, and I think it just made everything feel as though it was moving at light-speed at any given time. Experience has taught me that if I think April is fast, just wait until May…

spring break, new floors, and QT in the kitchen (once there was flooring down)

Listening: Every post-Boston podcast I’ve listened to was just awesome, particularly with Sarah Sellers, Boston’s 2nd place woman finisher. I still haven’t made it through all the post-Boston episodes, but I’ve really liked those I’ve heard so far. I love how so many non-professional runners just owned the day and ended up finishing on some of the biggest stages of their lives. That’s just an incredible storyline.

Racing: April meant the inaugural Silicon Valley half and Food Truck 5k for me and the Kids’ Run for my eldest, as well as the Sactown 10 miler for me. I was going to run another PA race, the Stow Lake 5k at the end of the month, but opted to stay home and run long instead, which I think was the right decision, even if it meant missing the fun social opportunities that race day provides. Right now, I don’t have any racing plans on the calendar for May, just good ol’ fashioned marathon training. It’ll be great. Do I write weekly training recaps, now that I’m beginning training? Or just keep it in this monthly format? Does anyone even care? Decisions…

the blue hour’s my fav.

Watching: Anytime I include this section, it just makes me realize exactly how little TV I watch or how infrequently I see movies. It’s sorta pitiful. I am, however, looking forward to Deadpool 2 (is that even what it’s called?) coming out in May, and we already have double feature date night tickets.

Writing: A fair bit here last month with all the race recapping and book reviewing, plus a healthy volume of freelance stuff. It’s all feast or famine with the latter, and it seems to be freaking Thanksgiving right now, luckily.

Anticipating: Everything. It’s that time of year.

no fun to be had in the woods. no fun at all. (PC: Saurabh, I think)

Dreading: An obnoxious and super restrictive GI test I get to have done at the end of the month. Basically, if I understand it correctly, if I have diarrhea at all in the weeks preceding the test, that could alter my results (ok, so that’s already surely strike one against me). For about 2 days before the test, I can only consume plain white rice (and a bunch of meat and poultry that I wouldn’t eat) because … something about results getting skewed otherwise … and then the day of, I think have to fast for about 12 hours prior to the test. This will be after another test I get to do that’ll have me at the doctor’s office (with my two year-old in tow) for a good 3+ hours doing various breath tests to test for … something. I’m not even sure, to be honest. Sounds pretty rad, right? I swear I’m keeping the medical establishment in business.     

May!    

2018 Inaugural Silicon Valley Half Marathon Race Recap – San Jose, CA

2018 Inaugural Silicon Valley Half Marathon Race Recap – San Jose, CA

Finally, on Sunday morning, the headlining event of the weekend rolled around: the inaugural Silicon Valley half marathon (and 10k). After being excited over this new event for the past almost-year, and then getting really jazzed about it in the preceding week by participating in a community run out of Lululemon Santana Row on the previous Saturday, a community meet-and-greet run with Meb on Wednesday, the Food Truck 5k and the kids’ race on Saturday, finally — at long last — it was time for the event we were all so excited about.

community run to fan the stoke for SV race week (PC: @representrunning IG)

 

race weekend! race map! San Jose!

My singular goal going into the SV Half was simple: to finish. I had no pace expectations or guidelines, and Lisa specifically instructed me to treat it as a “glorified long run,” to go enjoy the course and the crowd and just have fun with it; if, and only if, I were feeling good should I try to pick it up the last 3-4 miles (and even if I felt good but simply didn’t want to pick it up, that would be fine, too). The race, 10 weeks post-stroke, would signify my longest continuous run and would be a milestone in the 5 ½ weeks I had been running since getting cleared at 4 ½ weeks post-stroke.

My very soft (mushy) time goal for the race, if I had to have one, was to stay within 8-8:30 range for most of the race and then see what happened from there, based solely on how I felt from racing at the Sactown 10 the week before. Again, though, I didn’t really care much about my pace and said that I wanted to “party-pace” it, to just go out, be comfortable, and build up my endurance again.

Fortunately, Janet was also running the SV Half as part of her MTB training plan, so we carpooled over to the race and ran a couple warm-up miles together. I woke up feeling pretty bad and spent a lot of QT with my bathroom because my stomach was in shambles, so I was worried that the race experience would be rather unpleasant. The weather was just lovely and really great for running, and once we ran over to the starting area, two miles later, we connected with many other RR ambassadors and Wolfpack runners who’d be toeing the line. I finally got to meet Margot in the starting corral (yay social media!), too, which was sweet. I knew there’d be just a handful of Wolfpack harriers racing that day, but there’d be a lot on the Alameda, serving as course volunteers. It was going to be a good morning and promised to be fun as hell (potential stomach issues be damned), heavy on the “woohoo let’s go have a good time and fun run this experience” and light on stress and self-inflicted pressure.

hi, Margot! bonus of fun-running a race is carrying my phone with me and taking pictures

 

more fun with friends, this time teammates Janet and Sam (HM and 10k, respectively). I’m wearing my Wolfpack trucker, except that it doesn’t fit my head really well, so I looked *real* cool with aviators and a backwards trucker for the entirety of the race (except for the pic right below this one)

 

most – but not all – of the Wolfpack harriers running that morning. I was wearing my RR ambassador tank since I had worn my Wolfpack orange the day before (PC: Melissa)

 

ambassador friends (plus Janet!), otherwise known as Brian and his harem (thanks, Amazon, for the free pics all weekend)

Before too long, we were off, and I comfortably settled into a pace that I thought felt manageable for 13.1. I didn’t clock-watch and instead relied on how I felt to dictate my effort. I recalled reading on the race site that the course would be different from RNRSJ and that it didn’t run on the GRT bikepath at all, and when I looked at the map beforehand, it looked like it’d be an interesting mix of a bunch of different areas of the city, some familiar to me and some not. We first began by looping around SJSU before eventually making out way over to Coleman and the Rose Garden area of the GRT. I felt comfortable and in control, and I was making a conscious effort to try to bring my pace down from 7:40s closer to 8s or even 8:30s. I didn’t feel tired or anything like that, but I also knew that I hadn’t run 13.1 continuous miles in months and that I was carrying significant volume on my legs from the week’s training. More than anything, I wanted to be careful. I felt well, I felt like I was actually running almost uncomfortably slowly, but c’mon: in longer endurance events like HMs, most people feel that way in the front half. I didn’t want to push early on only to absolutely tank later. My training and endurance just aren’t there yet.

I don’t remember where this was, but I think it might have been early, somewhere in the front half. that guy behind me is wearing the participant LS shirt (it’s really nice!).

Usually we read online posts urging you to never try anything new on race day, and most of the time, I’d absolutely heed that advice because otherwise, I’m sure I’d be the runner completely beset with crazy blisters or diarrhea down my backside due to poor-fitting shoes or not-so-GI-friendly gels. When I was at the Meb run earlier in the week, I tried Generation UCan for the first time (post-run), decided it tasted pretty good, and that I’d take it on course when the volunteers gave it out. Similarly, when I was preparing for the race, I couldn’t find my trusty AccelGels, only some Science in Sport (SiS) samples, and instead of freaking out about it, I figured what the hell. (It’s so unlike me to be so cavalier about race-day nutrition, but I think I figured eh, what have I got to lose). The AS were about every two miles for the first 8-9 miles and then just about every mile thereafter, and fortunately — and somewhat miraculously — neither the SiS nor the Gen UCan destroyed my GI system, and even better, they both went down smoothly. My stomach was still pretty uncomfortable and hurt through the first 5 miles — like 5/10 uncomfortable — but praise the universe that the discomfort passed, and the new fuel choices didn’t seem to exacerbate anything. Again: super lucky.

After we exited the Rose Garden area of the GRT, we began to return to downtown and looped around Cesar Chavez Plaza, right outside the Fairmount Hotel and the Tech Museum, before returning in the direction of the Alameda. This out-and-back, around mile 5 or so, was one of the first sections where we incoming runners could see those outgoing, which is always fun. By about halfway, I was still feeling well, running along comfortably, and just enjoying the experience of the inaugural race. Plus, my stomach felt better. I had no complaints in the world.

hi, Janet! She was coming off CC plaza, already past the Tech, while I was heading towards it

Once we hit up the Alameda — a familiar place if you’ve run other SJ races, like the 408k or RNR SJ, to name a few — I began to anticipate seeing my teammates on the sidelines. Sure enough, before too long, I began to see many of my teammates on each block lining the Alameda, a nice pick-me-up for sure. I recalled reading from When that we all tend to begin to slog a little in the middle of our endeavors — everyone does it, regardless of whatever activity or pursuit you’re undertaking, because the middle just doesn’t have the same type of momentum or urgency that, say, the beginning or the end has — so having my teammates present, even if only for a minute, helped keep the middle mile blues at bay.

passing by the SAP, where the 10k runners were finishing, and looking longingly at the line. it appears as though gravity is slowly knocking me over.

I knew after the Alameda we wouldn’t have too much longer before we’d begin our “back” portion of the race, once we looped around Lincoln HS, but for the life of me, I couldn’t remember how far we’d have left on the Alameda after running around LHS. As we looped around LHS, we had another opportunity to see the outbound leaders (and eventually, other inbound runners), and it was a lot of fun to cheer for so many friends and teammates running mid-race around their mile 10/11. It seemed like we were running through part of the super-pretty Rose Garden neighborhood of SJ, just as we do in the 408k, and before long, we had looped around the HS and began to inch our way towards the Alameda. It was somewhere in this stretch that I passed a guy running in a full-on suit (which I couldn’t help but think had to be terribly uncomfortable), and I fistbumped a bit for my friends running Boston the next morning when we turned onto Boston Ave. I was still feeling pretty well, tired for sure and beginning to warm up slightly, but by mile 10 of a half, I really couldn’t complain.

hello, friends Melissa and Jenn, starting their final 5kish stretch

Around mile 10, I recalled Lisa’s suggestion that if I felt well, and if I wanted to, I could try to pick things up that deep into the race, so I tried to begin picking people off as much as I could. I didn’t feel like I had a ton left in my reserves at that point, but I figured what the hell… if I run faster, I’ll finish faster. No doubt was I buoyed by the onslaught of cheers from the inbound runners (which I enthusiastically reciprocated), and I hoped that between those cheers, the pretty comfortable pace I had run earlier in the race, and seeing my teammates again along the Alameda for the final 2/2 and change that I could finish the race strong.

Historically, HMs have been a bit of an Achilles’ heel for me. I tend to not run them very well — usually either blowing up mid-race because I’ve paced it poorly or because I’m in the thick of marathon training and am exhausted AF and/or because my GI becomes a royal shit show and just implodes (explodes) for some reason. At the SV half, fortunately neither disaster transpired. Sure, I was getting tired toward the end because I hadn’t run 13.1 continuous miles since sometime in January (and thus, fresh off CIM fitness), but I wasn’t tanking so heartily as I often do in other HMs, nor was my GI system giving me the finger.

I usually do not look this happy in HMs

For being 10 weeks post-stroke and relying on 5 ½ weeks’ worth of training, I couldn’t be happier when I strolled into the finish chute at 1:43 and change for 13.2x (my watch had measured the course long almost from the get-go; it’s USATF certified, though, so I’m guessing it was just me). I was happy to be finished, but more than that, I was happy to be well enough and in a sufficient amount of fitness to be able to both start and finish the damn thing. That it and of itself was enough for me.

one left turn away from the finish line in front of SAP

 

and that’s a wrap. my shorts look forever long here for some reason.

Shortly after finishing, I collected an inordinate amount of hardware from the race — the huge finish medal, a 2.0 challenge medal for having run the 5k the day before and the HM that day, and another for running the 408 and the SV races. I’m not particularly into medals — truth be told, I donate most all of them — but I was genuinely impressed by the size and weight of these things, in addition to the little silicon chip-like detail (heyoo, Silicon Valley).

an example of one medal from the day’s festivities. huge and pretty impressive, right? (PC: @representrunning)

Soon after finishing, I found Janet, who had run a great race in her MTB marathon prep, and after we chatted with Dennis (whom I had seen the day before at the 5k as well) and performed some obligatory silly jump-shot pics, Janet and I went back re-ran the final mile of the course in reverse to cheer for more runners (allowing us to see Sonia and Christina in the process), talk to our teammates, and run a couple cool-down miles. By the end of the day, together we each had posted 17 miles between the race and WU/CD miles, which in turn put me at over 50 miles for the week: both new volume milestones for me post-stroke.

…and I felt great.

obligatory

Neither Janet nor I were interested in the free adult beverages that our bibs entitled us to, so we gifted our vouchers to someone who looked particularly thirsty, and we left. (In doing so, I missed all the post-race celebratory stuff from the ambassadors, but alas. It was nice to see them all before the previous day’s 5k race).

We lucked out with beautiful, running-friendly weather on race day, and with that, a fun (and very flat and very PR friendly) course, and great race day-organization and attention to detail, I think it’s safe to say that the inaugural SV Half went over without a hitch. Of course, by virtue of being a SMA for Represent Running races, the company comps my entries to these events, but hopefully by now you’d trust that I’m transparent in my evaluation and criticism of races that I run. I’ve raced a lot in the past decade-plus that I’ve been doing this stuff, and honestly, I would have had no idea that this was the inaugural year for this race. That, itself, is telling of how smoothly and successfully RR executed the race, IMHO. Being able to tell a race is new is, in general, not a good thing.

I hope that the SV Half becomes a mainstay in the SJ running scene, and if it does, I have no doubt that it’ll just continue to grow and improve. Having an early spring half on the calendar is advantageous because it’s a distance that’s accessible to a lot of people, and it’s one that can compel people to train through what is typically sometimes challenging “winter” conditions in SJ (though we bypassed a lot of that this year). Plus, realistically, even if you don’t want to commit to the HM distance, you could run the 10k or 5k; there really is something for everyone. Finally, as I mentioned before, the hardware was impressive (a big draw for a lot of people); the 5k participant shirt is a tech tee that I would actually keep and wear on training runs; and HM participants received a weekender-style duffle bag, which was a nice departure from the standard swag, as well as a genuinely good-looking quarter-zip tech long-sleeve tee that’s free of sponsor logos anywhere, one that I wore for days after the race. Plus: free race pictures! All good things, all good things.

You don’t have to run fast and PR or even train particularly arduously in order to have a positive race experience; this isn’t news, but sometimes I think it’s worth reminding myself. I went into the SV Half with zero expectations and nothing much in the way of goals, save for finishing the thing, and I couldn’t have been happier or enjoyed my morning (and really, the entire race weekend) more. I’m excited to see this race grow in the coming years and to cementing my “legacy” status.

If you find yourself in Silicon Valley next spring, I hope you’ll join me at the SV Half weekend. You’ll have a good time.