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Oakland Marathon 2014 training: 7 weeks out

Oakland Marathon 2014 training: 7 weeks out

7 weeks out – week 5 – week of January 27, 2014

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Yeah, uh, 7 weeks out, not 8. Apparently someone can’t read an Excel spreadsheet too well, so all my numbers have been off so far. #facepalm

Anyway, few things were on my mind with my runs this week except a) being mindful of effort, given my intention of running-but-not-racing-but-doing-a-half on Sunday, the day following my LR, and b) getting through peak week #1. Pfitzinger’s 70/12 is a tad different from others in that instead of building-building-building to a training apex, and then having runners topple down the huge taper tower and barrel toward race day, you basically keep the mileage somewhat consistently high but hit your maximum volume a few times in the 12-week cycle. (I’m not sure if he does this for his other plans that are longer in duration, but I’d imagine so).

That said, this week was my first time I would intend on hitting my 70-mile maximum, and due to some scheduling shuffling, I included the Kaiser half in San Francisco–a bit of a rundezvous with Austin, as well as some nice quality time with Stone, and Chicago Bootlegger galpal Meredith, who was in SF for work–in the mix. I knew that this week would be taxing, but I also felt like if done well, it could be great feedback 25% into the cycle.

Also! Super fun! Late in the week, I found out I was selected to be a race ambassador for the Zooma women’s half marathon in Napa in late June. I never ran the Zooma series in Chicago, but when I saw announcements on twitter for Napa, I thought ‘what the hell.’ Most,if not all, women’s-only races are inherently quite different from those of the co-ed flavor, and I thought that this could be a great opportunity for me to meet other runners in the Bay/NorCal area. I was really surprised (and quite honored) that I was selected, but I’m super stoked to meet everyone and go to Napa (about two hours away) in June. 🙂  Discount code coming soon!

ZOOMA-Napa-logo-FINALI also wrote a guest entry this week for TSFM’s blog about the importance of setting, articulating, and then going after crazy-ass goals, and then I had a good little hyperventilation sesh with myself as I publicly admitted to the interwebz what I’m chasing this spring (and long-term). Oh baby.

Finally! If you’re in the Bay or NorCal area, or even if you just want to travel here for some runs (heeeeeey), you could TOTALLY use my discount codes and actually probably have these races fit right into your training plan this spring/summer!

  • Run the 408k – 8k – Sunday, March 2 – San Jose – $4.08 off with code 408hookup
  • ZOOMA women’s half marathon – 13.1 – Saturday, June 28 – Napa – discount code forthcoming 🙂
  • The San Francisco Marathon – 26.2, the first 13.1, the second 13.1, or the 5k – Sunday, July 27 –  $10 off with  code DSC10TSFM2014A26

Alright! Training!

Monday, January 27

p: rest/XT

a: rest. Like a boss. + PUs + glute med work

I can’t recall anything I did last Monday. It was the day after the Shoreline to Stanford Dish 20 that I ran with the RunAddicts group, and I felt pretty well but noticed a little stiffness in one of my left toes and a bit of high calf/low hamstring tightness on my right side following the run. Nothing was particularly bad, nor did it bother me on subsequent runs this week; I was just cognizant of it.

Tuesday, January 28

p: GA + speed: 8 mi with 10x100m strides

a: MLR 15: 8.05 mi in the a.m.; 7.64 in the p.m. + PUs + glute med work + RYBQ 10×10 strength routine, 2 rounds

C’s work schedule allowed me to do this run a bit later than usual, and since I was supposed to have my first two-a-day this week, I opted to break-up the MLR–not something I’d normally do, but the opportunity presented itself. The a.m. run was weirdly warm; for perspective, it’s usually between 38-45 when I run, and it was mid-to-high 50s, if memory serves. Running south on Capitol gave me the opportunity to dreamily watch the sun rise over the hills like a big weirdo and attempt to try to capture the beauty of it on my (very dirty… thank you, toddler) phone camera. In addition, my watch was being a B (yup, I anthropomorphize technology) and didn’t capture my splits: not a big deal.

Capitol, facing south
Capitol, facing south

The p.m. run, around 3pm (read: nearly 40 degrees warmer than what I’m used to right now, ha), was lovely and vitamin-D infused. I returned to the PCP and ran on the west side for a jiffy before picking up the east side and the track. My legs wanted to move, but we had a little talk and decided to take things down a notch. By the end of this run, it also looked like I pissed myself because I was wearing gray spandex. Noted.

west side of PCP
west side of PCP

a.m. average: 8:20 (splits disappeared)

p.m. average: 7:51 (7:53, 42, 49, 8:01, 20, 7:51, 41, 27 for .64)

Also, finally got my ass back into doing the RYBQ 10×10 routine. I felt like I could have taken three showers on Tuesday; that’s my contribution to the drought here.

Wednesday, January 29

p: MLR 15

a: recovery 5.05 (9:26 average; 9:48, 12, 21, 39, 12) + PUs + GM work

Another weirdly warm morning, probably the warmest pre-dawn that I’ve had here. Also had the joy of running in some rain/mist action for the first 1-1.5 miles. I was trying to keep things comfortable; mission accomplished.

Thursday, January 30

p: recovery 5

a: GA + speed, 7.19 miles with 8x100m strides (8:15 average, 8:57, 7:55, 8:13, 23, 12, 05, 01, 39 for .19) + PUs + GM work

Began this run planning to do 8 miles with 10×100 m strides but realized in my last 13 minutes of the run that my mental math faculties that morning were horrendous and that I’d have to stop at 7. NBD. Another wet morning here–which is WONDERFUL–but it made for slick sidewalks and some trepidation on my part to attempt any strides/speed for fears of wiping out. Things get slippery when wet here, folks. I try to avoid anything shiny (think pavement, sewer grates, and the like)…but everything is seemingly shiny when wet, or at least appears to be so between 4-6 a.m. Running in the rain is kinda novel though, so the fun factor mostly outweighed the fear Thursday morning. 🙂

Friday, January 31

p: lactate threshold 11 mi with 5 @ 15k/HMRP; recovery 4 in the p.m.

a: GA + speed, 8.1 with 10x100m strides (8:22 average; 8:40, 12, 39, 21, 16, 23, 25, 7:53) + PUs + abbreviated GM work

Tale of two runs. Part one, going south on Capitol, felt horrible–bloaty, heavy, just good and caca. Swung by home halfway through and then picked up the east side of PCP for the back half and hopped on the cinder-y track in nearly complete darkness, save for the bit of light from my headlamp and the stars. Running in the dark like that took me back to middle-of-the-night legs during Ragnar; initially, it is a bit unnerving, but it is also really cool and wonderfully serene. Besides a cat who didn’t move from its spot the entire time I was on the track, I saw a dude walking on the path, but a quick yell and wave to him, and his reciprocation, indicated he probably wasn’t going to knife me. And, really, truth be told, I was more averse to mountain lions coming down from the hills to play than I was with folks just out strollin’ in the pre-dawn hours. The back half of this run 100% turned the entirety of the run around for me.

Saturday, February 1 – hellllllo, February!

p: GA + speed, 7 mi w 6x100m strides

a: LR 17 with Meredith! on the Guadalupe River Trail (8:03 average; 8:31, 23, 00, 10, 10, 09, 18, 09, 06, 06, 13, 06, 03, 7:58, 45, 30, 14)

So very happy to have Meredith in town and that she willingly drove about 70 minutes super early on a Saturday morning to come down to SJ to run with me. After lots of plan flip-flopping–doing her Daniels’ workout, doing my 20, just doing 16 or 17–we eventually decided we’d do 17 and just run and not clockwatch or worry about hitting GMP or anything. My original plan was to do 20, but I ultimately decided to flip-flop my LRs from last week and this week, and given the Kaiser half on Sunday anyway, that seemed to be the most practical. I intentionally wanted to go into Kaiser tired, but 17 and 20, in the grand scheme of LR mileage, are comparable, and the difference, negligible, at best.

Anyway! Back we went to N SJ, to the GRT, where we ran north to Alviso, south to downtown, and then back north to the River Oaks area. Despite a few pit and fueling stops, this run was just wonderful and lovely–sun shining, a friend from home, no expectations, just awesome. We got to talking about goals for this year (and learned we share many!), and I think that inspired us to pick it up on the final 3-4 of the run. I had fun chasing Mere’s backside down the GRT 🙂

with Mere in SJ!
with Mere in SJ!

I felt really, really good during and after this run. The weird calf and toe things were inconsequential by now, and if anything, gave me some bio feedback that I need to spend some QT with my foam roller, a rolling pin, and a massage therapist.  We followed this run with Denny’s with C and A and eventually went into SF, where we would meet-up with Stone and Austin and friends for dinner and fun before Kaiser on Sunday morning.

they were 'cold' ;)
they were ‘cold’ 😉

 

yay, friends!
yay, friends!

Sunday, February 2 — heeeey, Groundhog’s Day!

p: LR 20

a: Kaiser half marathon (13.1) + 2.2 mi warm-up + 2.15 cool-down [race– 7:30 average; botched my watch and lost my splits. lowest was 7 on the descents; highest was an 8:43-8 on my pit stop. Most were in the 7:1x-2x range with a couple :3x, if memory serves]

Second road race ever in CA and first as a resident… what say whaaaaat. Stayed at Stone’s overnight (thank you, hostess with the mostest) and ran over to the race start with her and Foxy in the rain. I keep bringing up this drought that’s rockin’ the Bay right now, and naturally, Murphy’s Law apparently dictated that SF get more rain in the 12 hours preceding the race, and nearly all day, on the day of the race, than the Bay Area has gotten since I moved here in late December… and, oh yeah, some wind too, just to round things out. 🙂 Definitely not complaining–bitching about the weather is just silly–but it was just an uncontrollable variable to the race.

wet and trashy pre-race with Foxy and Stone
wet and trashy pre-race with Foxy and Stone

Anyway, I went into this race tired but ready to run as well as I could that day, going almost exclusively on feel. After running the first few miles with Austin, Stone, Foxy, and another Erin, I eventually settled into a 7:1x-2x range but slowly began to feel uncomfortable. I didn’t think I was going super hard–I would describe it as “comfortably hard,” post LR-day–but I just felt a little off. I rocked some PRPs, so I ruled out any gastrointestinal issues, but eventually, around mile 9.65, I made the executive decision to duck out for a second to tend to the Big D along the Great Highway. It didn’t take very long, no doubt because the public bathroom was locked and I just had to quickly commune with nature, and as you would expect, I felt much, much better afterward. (You’re welcome)

In addition, the race through the Panhandle and Golden Gate Park follows a lot of TSFM’s course, which is awesome, and has a ton of descents and few ascents, making this a great course for a half PR. Once we got dumped onto the Great Highway though, we ran smack into a hearty headwind for around 3-4 miles (I think), which, while irritating, actually made me smile a bit because I felt like I was on the lakefront. 🙂

I saw Foxy and Stone ahead of me for much of the course and knew that they were going to PR–making me so very happy for them (I tend to celebrate friends’ PRs like they’re my own)–and literally steps before the finish line, I heard, and then saw, Meredith on the sidelines, freezing her toosh off from the nearly non-stop rain and wind, cheering. You might recall that Meredith and some other Bootleggers were on the Chicago Marathon course around mile 24 or 25 and change; seriously, there are few people I look forward to seeing more than this lovely cat that late in a race. 🙂

Ultimately, I squeaked in just under 1:40, my soft and unofficial goal for the race, and I’m quite pleased with it. The other halfs with potty breaks were in the mid-to-high 1:40s, so this  went considerably better… and on fatigued legs… and in sub-ideal weather… so I’m calling it a win. The race could definitely stand to be improved–hello, the shitshow and security nightmare that is gear check–but I’d do likely do it again.

For me anyway, the race was pretty inconsequential in the grand scheme of my last 24 hours; at the risk of sounding obnoxiously treacly, I was just really happy for the QT with my friends from Portland, SF, and Chicago 🙂

about 10-15 seconds from the finish, I think
about 10-15 seconds from the finish, I think

 

final streeeetch
final streeeetch

 

soaked and chilled post-race w Stone, Mere (spectator amazingness), and a sleeping Foxy... thanks for these pics, M!
soaked and chilled post-race w Stone, Mere (spectator amazingness), and a sleeping Foxy… thanks for these pics, M!

 

can't believe I haven't seen him since Eugene!
can’t believe I haven’t seen him since Eugene!

 

And there we have it, folks! Another week down, another week closer to Oakland, and finally, some race feedback to work from. Though it only happened once this week, I’m glad I got some strength stuff in the books, and all things considered, I’m floored with how Kaiser went down. We are movin’ right along.

Weekly Mileage

p: 70

a: 70.48

Have you had to make a mid-race bathroom stop? How were your runs this week? Are you getting stoked for your target race(s)?!

Oakland Marathon 2014 training: 9 weeks out

Oakland Marathon 2014 training: 9 weeks out

9 weeks out / week 4 – week of January 20, 2014

 

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Last week, I wrote that it seemed ‘mental callousing’ and ‘opportunities’ were especially thematic for my runs, and this week, if I had to pick some, it’d be somewhere along the lines of trust the process and don’t freak the hell out. Throughout 2013, I worked a lot on my mental game when it comes to running and my marathoning pursuits. It’s not that I’ve ever been especially… let’s call it “delusional” when it comes to my running, or my goals or abilities, but last year, after a few game-changing races for me, I felt like I had a long way to get my head to catch up to my heart.

 

Rarely do I go into a run “fearing” it (as much as one can fear an inanimate object… or a voluntary physical activity…), but I still sometimes let some preconceived notions and, well, fear, I guess, get into my head. It’s entirely head trash, and while I can usually keep it at bay, sometimes I can’t. It’s aggravating when the head trash wins, but it makes me determined as all hell to not let it get to me again.

 

This week also marked our first full month of residency in California. That, my friends, is trippy. Guess this isn’t a vacation, after all…

 

you know you're staying put when you get a library card
you know it’s not vacation when you get a library card

 

Alas, the training week that was:

 

Monday, January 20

plan: R/XT

actual: MLR 15.04 [8:14 average; 8:22, 27, 15, 22, 23, 24, 14, 7:59, 8:27, 31, 34 (climbing in PCP), 8, 7:57, 51] + PUs

 

Mondays are typically rest days for me, but my husband’s work schedule (vacation day!) made this a no-brainer for me. If I can wake up at 5am instead of 3am, I’ll take 5. This was pretty much like a choose-your-own-adventure (CYOA) type of run, and along the way, I found a regulation-sized track, of the something-like-cinder variety, on the east side of Penitencia Creek Park, only about a mile and change from home… very exciting. The back 7 of this run were entirely exploratory because just last week, I had run on the west side of PCP and thought that was all there was to the park/trail system. Very cool – and very fun to not have a pre-dawn MLR 15 for a change.

 

found on my run... a track!
found on my run… a track!

 

Tuesday, January 21

p: lactate threshold 10 with 5 at tempo pace (15k/HMRP)

a: recovery 5 with 2 hill repeats at the end [8:45 average; 8:48, 41, 51, 33, 51] + PUs

 

LT are probably my least favorite type of run… probably. These are the runs that I somewhat fear, somewhat dread, because in the throes of marathon training, on fatigued legs (even if they don’t “feel” fatigued), it’s usually quite challenging for me to hit my target paces. I know it should be challenging—that’s why it’s so important, kids—but sometimes, I get worked up about it and feel like something of a failure (#drama) if I don’t hit the paces exactly as prescribed. Yeah, roll your eyes at me here. I’m doing it myself.

 

Well, given my volume of late, and the way my previous five or so days’ worth of training stacked up, it made the most sense to do a recovery Tuesday morning instead. I think this was important physiologically, but I also think that it was probably a crutch for me and just a way to procrastinate on doing a run that I was already beginning to freak out about.

 

The recovery was fun—nice and relaxed—and once I figured out that I could do half-mile repeats on a highway bridge/overpass thing a stone’s throw from our new place, I decided doing a couple at the end of a recovery run was as good a time as any to start.

 

Wednesday, January 22

p: MLR 15

a: Rest + PUs + glute med work

 

Ah, rest. Spent most of the day unpacking (long and slow process) and also began incorporating nightly glute med work into my PU regimen. My L glute med got a little mean during my Chicago training—minimally so, anyway—but I’m all about being preventative and getting my ass nice and strong before I dramatically realize I need to.

 

Thursday, January 23

p: recovery 6

a: speed 10 with 5 at 15k/HMRP recovery 6 unplanned rest day

 

Erin: 0, head trash: 1.

 

I thought I was setting myself up for success by having my speed sesh come fresh off a rest day, and the morning of, I was ready to go… except that I wasn’t 100% certain about my target pace range, and for whatever reason, our wireless wasn’t working between 3:30-4:30 a.m., so I couldn’t access my training plan. I’m not even kidding you, I was fully dressed, hydrated, gastrointestinally emptied, with my headlamp on my head and shoes on my feet, and once I figured out that, no matter what I did, I couldn’t find my pace, I bailed. I rationalized that it was critically important (!!) that I know exactly what pace range I needed to hit, and if I didn’t know it, then I shouldn’t do the workout, which means I should just go sleep instead, and really, I probably wouldn’t hit the range anyway because I’m tired as all fuck (poor sleep the night before…thanks, toddler), I’ve got lots of miles on my legs lately, and oh yeah, the wireless started working after I decided to bail and had already begun undressing to get back into bed, so I would be really tight on time to get home by 6, so that means I probably shouldn’t go anyway because I won’t get the prescribed mileage, a;lksjf;lajsflajsl;dfjasl;kdfja;lskdfjl;asflakflkjlkjflj

 

Yup. That, my friends, is BS in action.

 

the jibbery-jabbery note I left C in the morning
the jibbery-jabbery note I left C in the morning

 

Even in the throes of my bailing, and even as I was going back to sleep, I knew I’d be pissed at myself for not doing something that morning. Ultimately, I was pissed because I knew that whatever bullshit rationalization I concocted was really just a cover for some insecurities.

 

Tempos are tough.

 

Running fast when you’re not 3000% fresh isn’t all unicorns and rainbows.

 

Running fast is fun, yes, absolutely, who doesn’t love to feel the wind, but running fast and after a target speed necessitates concentration that a MLR doesn’t, and if your head isn’t in the game from the get-go, you’re setting yourself up to lose.

 

Ultimately, my master plan was to do the tempo once C got home from work that night. Throughout the day, I relegated myself to doing another recovery 6, and of course, his arrival home was later than usual, my (home-cooked!) dinner was ready, blah blah blah… unplanned rest day it was. Not the end of the world, I rationally knew, but emotionally, I had gotten my panties in such a twist about the tempo in the first place and my failure before I even attempted it that **not** running on Thursday just heightened everything 100-fold.

 

Rationally, I know that one poor run does not a lousy runner make, and that it’s the work over time, the un-sexy, day in and day out stuff, but sometimes, I need a taste of my own medicine, the stuff I regularly prescribe to my runner friends when they freak out about taking time off. Much easier saying than doing, that’s for sure.

 

Live to run another day, my friends. The world still turns; life does, in fact, go on.

 

Friday, January 24

p: MLR 13

a: lactate threshold: 10.15 miles with 5 @ 15k/HMRP (7:56 average; wu: 8:47, 18, 11, LT: 7:17, 05, 09, 04, 14 [target range: 7:13-21], cd: 9:22, 8:51 [threw in some hill repeats]) + PUs + glute med work

 

Finally. After yesterday’s mental breakdown throw-down, I was determined to do as well as possible on this tempo and to just fuckin’ relaaaaaaaaax; this is supposed to be fun, remember? I had an idea of a course in mind, but because I got to run later than usual (6am, instead of 4am), I had to contend with vehicles and traffic lights, and during all of my tempo miles, I had to stop at least once/mile for the aforementioned. Though I was hitting my targets and, at times, even going faster than I needed to be, I felt like the constant starting/stopping might have negated the speed.

 

At any rate, I felt like I still achieved the purpose of the run, and when I was tempo-ing, I felt very strong and weirdly ‘light’ (weird only because I’m not a lightweight runner by any stretch of the imagination).

 

Thanks to some pep talks from some dear friends, I think I went into this tempo with a much healthier mindset than I had earlier in the week. Writing my target on my hand wasn’t a bad idea, either.

 

focus, grasshopper
focus, grasshopper

 

Once I realized that my tempo target was right around where I typically run the final miles of my long runs at (and that my tempo miles were even slower than my last few miles of the NYCM), suddenly the big-scary-tempo-monster didn’t really have a leg to stand on anymore.

 

Erin: 1, head trash: 0. Booyah.

 

Saturday, January 25

p: LR 20 in Mountain View w/Running Addicts group

a: MLR CYOA 15.01 in SJ (8:22 average; 8:39, 13, 27, 21, 35, 18, 35, 47, 32, 26, 27, 06, 7:59, 46, and a missing split…) + PUs + glute med work

 

I was so excited to run with Linh and the folks from the Running Addicts group in Mountain View that I, uh, drove myself to the trail 24 hours before the group run. Oops. Back home I went, where I promptly fell asleep for two more hours, so I didn’t begin my Saturday run until nearly (gasp) 8:30 a.m.

 

My plan was to not have a plan, so slowly, the run built from being an hour, to 10 miles, to 12, and finally, to 15. I did some investigating and found the three tracks that Google Maps showed me within 3 miles of my place—awesome–though I couldn’t access one of them, and the other two that I could run on are probably iffy for pre-dawn runs, unless I want to hop some fences. Time will tell.

 

as lovely to run on as it is to look at
as lovely to run on as it is to look at

 

 

SJHS track in Little Portugal
SJHS track in Little Portugal

 

For the most part, I kept this run at a nice GA or recovery pace, and during the final 3.5 miles, I threw in 7 hill repeats near my place because… why not. Plus, I think runnin’ those guys at the end, or in the middle, of my runs is good mental (and physical) training for that which I’ll cover in Oakland.

 

Sunday, January 26

p: LR 17

a: LR 20.40 with Linh, Amy, Deanna, Johnny, and Ko (Running Addicts group)  [8:20 average; ~820-1120 elevation gain; 10:04, 9:33, 8:52, 53, 29, 05, 24, 19, 08, 32, 8:37 (319 ft – think I hit my watch here on accident or something), 9:22 (here begins the climbing), 23, 8:32, 6:59 (fun), 7:16, 8:22, 7:31, 32, 32, 20, 14 for .34] + PUs + glute med work

 

Back to Mountain View, to Shoreline Park, to actually meet-up with the run group on the correct day. After a 3.5 mile warm-up in Shoreline Park in Mountain View, we made our way over to (and through) Palo Alto and Stanford before trekking over to the (enormous) Stanford Dish. Linh, our fearless leader, billed this run as a good Oakland course simulation, since we wouldn’t do any significant climbing until about miles 9-13, once we got over to the Dish.

 

the Oakland full course profile
the Oakland full course profile

 

 

our elevation profile from our 20
our elevation profile from our 20

 

The hills were definitely challenging, but they were 100% fun. And besides, what goes up…

 

one of many descents
one of many descents

 

yay running downhill
yay running downhill. Thanks to Linh for practically all of these pictures.

 

This run was fantastic–thanks, no doubt, to the company, the scenery, the change of terrain and elevation, everything–so I’m stoked to do this one again soon. I didn’t know how much my legs would enjoy today, since I was coming fresh off a lot of miles in the back half of this week, but they responded and feel no worse for the wear. This is a very, very good sign.

 

Coyote (and bobcat) alert. The advice is awesome; read closely.
Coyote (and bobcat) alert. The advice is awesome; read closely.

 

saw him!
saw him!

 

 

Farmers' market on Jan 27. Mind. blown.

Running through an outdoor farmers’ market on Jan 27. Mind. blown.

 

 

 

'I have to take this for my blog' (but they all turned out poorly!)
‘I have to take this for my blog’ (but they all turned out poorly!)

 

at the top, or near the top, of the Dish hill
at the top, or near the top, of the Dish hill

 

Overlooking Stanford, Mountain View, and Palo Alto
Overlooking Stanford, Mountain View, and Palo Alto, with my weirdo awkward stance

 

mid-run robot dance
mid-run robot dance, apparently

 

the (enormous communications) Dish at Stanford
the (enormous communications) Dish at Stanford

 

throwin' up signs post 2-0.
throwin’ up signs post 2-0.

 

Overall, from the week:

Feeling strong and optimistic; definitely no complaints. I’m looking forward to peak week #1 coming up, though as usual, I’ll have to do some schedule shuffling to accommodate life… which, this week, includes running the Kaiser Permanente Half Marathon in Golden Gate Park (in San Francisco) with Stone and Austin and possibly Meredith! Very, very excited.

 

kaiser half

Weekly Mileage

p: 65

a: 65.60

 

Do you ever have crazy freak-out moments before your runs because of [insert delusional, bullshit reason here]? What do you to get over yourself? How’s your training going?