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May 2018 training recap

May 2018 training recap

May was just as I had anticipated it would be: full. In the absence of racing this month, I did a lot of other high-quality stuff: lots of marathon training mileage, of course (posting just shy of 200 miles, about 196 and change) but also quite rewarding and gratifying non-running stuff, too.

While I wasn’t racing, I was instead going to the land of the mouse to celebrate my eldest’s 7th birthday, hosting my in-law(s) at my home for the whole month, doing lots of prep work for my eldest’s Girl Scout bridging (sort of like a promotion from one level in GS to the next), and helping out a lot at school with all the end-of-year stuff that comes at the end of an academic year. Add to the mix lots of freelancing again, and it felt like the month ended just as quickly as it started. Somewhere in the middle, I might have blinked. Maybe. All of that combined with raising a feisty almost three year-old and yeah, the days are long and years are short or some such nonsense. It’s all a blur. At least it’s a good blur, anyway.

not running

Really, I have zero complaints with how this month fared, especially as it relates to running. I took more rest days than I planned, simply due to our time down south at the beginning of the month, but no matter. Experience has taught me that walking around for 10+ hours for a few days in a row confers comparable benefits as does running easily for 30-60 minutes each day. (I still always bring running clothes with me, in the event that an opportunity presents itself, but I sorta assume that it’s not going to happen).

I don’t exactly know how to describe it, but I think May helped me to turn a corner on all this post-stroke stuff, too. I wrote something similar back in April, but I felt it even more in the past month. The passage of time has a way of helping with these things in that regard. I’m at a point where I can safely say that I will go for days on end without thinking even a fleeting thought about it and that, more often than not, when the thoughts do arise, it’s more a statement of fact than one that precipitates a shit-ton of anxiety or a meltdown.

Case in point: when my eldest is at swim practice, I run laps around the school campus. Coincidentally, this often puts me directly across the street from the hospital where I was admitted. I think I’ve said it in this space before, but for a while, even seeing the hospital was gut-wrenching (which was also horribly inconvenient since there’s a great Baskin-Robbins nearby). Fortunately, for the most part, nowadays when I run past the hospital repeatedly on my Tuesday and Thursday night runs, I don’t feel any different a reaction upon seeing it than I do upon encountering any of the other multitudinous businesses and establishments along my way. It’s there. That happened. Move on. It’s little, but it’s big, if that makes any sense at all. I don’t want to particularly think or talk about this anymore.

post swim night mileage. she loves her little parka she got for her bday 🙂

What, no doubt, has helped facilitate these corner-turning feelings has been my running this past month (and the continued passage of time, surely). Running is great for the cardiovascular and physiological side of things, but shit, it sure does wonders for lots of other messy (mental) stuff, too. It was sometime during the past month where I began to feel my confidence returning. Showing up and doing workouts that made me literally laugh out loud — how do I run that?! — and running hard and consistently on fatigued legs, not being intimidated by the prescribed volume or intensity, helped me regain a sense of accomplishment, pride, and really — bottom line — confidence that the stroke compromised a few months ago. I totally, absolutely, wholeheartedly get that as far as strokes go, I got super duper lucky, but that said, that doesn’t change the fact that my world got turned upside down and inside out a million times over there for a while. The mental side was rough, to say the least. Running does so much for me mentally — as it does for so many of you, as well — and I’m just elated as can be that both it and the general passage of time have helped me inch beyond everything.

from a Sunday LR with Janet in the ARP foothills above SJ. Downtown SJ is about at 3 o’clock (and nearly centered)

We do this stuff to feel strong, and regaining the feeling of strength after being robbed of it (for whatever reason) is pretty powerful stuff.

That feeling — of promise, hope, opportunity, potential, second chances, however you want to label it — is indescribable.

easy ‘hood miles are the best

The month of May, and its concomitant miles, gave me plenty of opportunities to have those feelings again and all but think to myself I AM HERE (no shame in this game).   

Where I am now is as good or better a place I would have hoped to be going into my first marathon of the year. Honestly, I couldn’t have been/couldn’t be happier.

I’m not particularly interested in comparing my current fitness level to that of yesteryears, but at this point, I can say that I like how I’m feeling and that it excites me. Aside from the usual workouts during the week, the long runs on the weekend — which have often been in ARP, in Janet’s and my neck of the woods — have also been tremendously helpful. Marathon runners will often say that the most important run of the week is the LR, and I’d take it one step further and say that if you’re returning to running after time away — for injury or just due to life, in general — one of the best ways to re-enter the sport, to get strong again, to up your endurance, and a whole host of other attributes, is by doing as much of your LRs on trails as possible. They are tremendous equalizers and injury mitigators and can do such incredible stuff for your mental muscle.

This feeling that I have suggests that things seem to be clicking. Workouts and long runs (the latter with or without built-in workouts) are both fun and challenging, which can sometimes be an elusive or precarious combination. I’m just thrilled to be training to do this marathon rodeo again for the 32nd time in about 8 weeks from now.

and as we get closer to TSFM weekend, it has been fun to put on my ambassador hat and go spread the love! here, with another ambassador, Jason, up at A Runner’s Mind – Burlingame at a Thursday night fun run

It may make for boring blog fodder to say that things are going well and that I’m happy where I am, but … sorry. My head’s in the ground and will be there for a bit longer, seeing what we can unearth along the way. Bear with me.

Revelling: New category! I’m still reeling from going down to Ventura a couple weekends ago to spectate at the Mountains to Beach marathon from Ojai to Ventura. It’s a hefty drive from SJ, about five hours +/-, but it’s a hugely popular marathon and half among Bay Area runners. It boasts something like a 700’ net drop (though punctuated with some ascents along the way), and I went down to cheer on many teammates and friends who’d be toeing the line. My friend, teammate, and coach Lisa ran the half (and did great, sub 1:26, notching our club’s master’s F record); my teammate, friend, and training partner Janet killed it in her debut marathon with a 3:26 (and got a sturdy BQ in the process); and I got to see Chicago friend Erica finish her 47th marathon (and score another BQ, too). Many more teammates and friends — like Hannah (sub-3 for her debut marathon), her fiance Phil (2nd place OA), Jenn (first sub-3), Tiffany (sub-3:15 and close to her PR, earning another high master’s level marking in our club), and Melissa (first sub-3) — just killed it out there, and it was so deeply inspiring to watch. I hung out at mile 22 (after seeing Lisa in the half around mile 11) and just had a blast cheering and cowbelling for my teammates. Entertaining Janet for her final 4 miles was also a treat. It was a good day for so many people, and I love that I got to experience a little bit of everyone’s celebration. I’m grateful my sorry ass didn’t cry because these things make me emotional. YAY RUNNING.

Wolfpack and friends pre-race dinner in Ventura. Phil (front, next to Hannah) went on to place 2nd OA at the race, and our other fella, Jonathan, went 3 flat. Such a fast group of humans, holy shit!

 

of course only Lisa looks like she’s out for a fun run when she’s running a 1:26 half. NBD (from ~mile 11)

 

A fast herd of runners – Hannah in black on the left, Jenn just steps behind the group in red, and Melissa up there, too, in blue (all sub-3 and very high placing overall).

 

Tiffany looked strong AF at mile 22! She caught me so off guard that I completely spaced on her name, haha. Sub-3:15 (3:13) and posting our second fastest master’s F record in the process.

 

Running with Janet over her last 4 miles was great. I tried to do that delicate balance of being entertaining and distracting without getting her to the point of wanting to knife me. (I still got a ride home, so I think I was at least moderately successful). This is from the last 1/2 mile or so of the course as it hugs the shore.

 

always such a treat to see Chicago Erica when she’s here! I hadn’t seen her since I was about 20 weeks pregnant with G, back in 2015. Erica did great, and it was when I was waiting for her at the finish line that I got all teary. 🙂

Reading: May had a lot of good stuff. Deena Kastor’s Let Your Mind Run (recapped here) was excellent and one that I would all but implore every runner — particularly distance runner — to read. Maria Shriver’s I’ve Been Thinking was meh, not really my style. I was genuinely surprised at how much I liked Jim Comey’s A Higher Loyalty simply because after reading Hillary’s book last year, I didn’t think I’d be able to stomach anything coming from him. (If you’re even minutely interested in politics and the shitshow that is Washington right now, I’d recommend reading it. It is fascinating and at times, tragic). Michelle McNamara’s I’ll Be Gone in the Dark about the Golden State Killer was equal parts awful and fascinating to read — how are some humans capable of doing such horrible things? — and reading it just weeks after the alleged killer was apprehended — and not long after McNamara, herself, died — was borderline creepy. Bonus creepy factor: the GSK’s slayings in SJ were relatively nearby, and I’m about 90% certain I’ve run by the homes several times. (!!!!) Finally, I finished Scott and Jenny Jurek’s North and loved it; the review is in my drafts folder and is forthcoming. The running lit world is … lit (not sorry) right now.  

Listening: No new music that I can remember in the past month, but a couple podcasts stand out to me: the longest shortest time’s interview with Cecile Richards and sounds like an MLM but OK’s special episode related to NXIVM. The former, with Richards, was really interesting and made a traffic-riddled drive bearable, and honestly, the latter, about NXIVM, was just weird AF. I have so many questions.

Watching: With my MIL staying with us for the entire month, C and I have had more date nights than we’ve had in a while (hooray!), and somewhere in the mix, we got to see a Deadpool 1 & 2 double feature. I won’t elaborate on my opinion about the new movie, in an effort to avoid spoilers, but I’ll admit we had a good time.

and that thing is still in my pencil pouch purse, unopened. I just noticed that person behind me putting her (his?) down into the t-shirt, hahaha

Anticipating: Once school ends, the girls and I will be heading to the midwest to see family for a few weeks, which will be great. While I’m there — in the thickest part of SF training — I’m planning to do a couple races, too. Change of scenery is always fun! *cough don’t get lost cough*

mother’s day 2018 = an excellent morning long run with Janet followed by most of the day in pajamas. yes, please

Writing: Lots of freelance stuff this past month but not much in this space, unfortunately. Between EOY obligations at my daughter’s school and her GS troop, my writing here suffered. I should perhaps consider committing to a post-a-day challenge or something. Maybe…

Dreading: Nothing comes to mind right now, aside from annoying insurance issues. All that BS I talked about last month is still up in the air and will be so until late July, until my “investigation” gets “finalized” er whatever (and in the interim, we started receiving collections notices, blerg). At the end of last week, I also finally had that super obnoxious test done that my GI ordered, the one that necessitated me eating only plain white rice for 24 hours before the test and then fasting for 12 hours the day of the test, all before going to the actual appointment, sitting around for more than three hours, not drinking or eating anything (and not being allowed to nap), and getting my breath analyzed every 20 minutes. Who the hell knows at this point. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

May was great, and I’m looking forward to all that June has to offer. 

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaw 

2018 Inaugural Silicon Valley Half Marathon Race Recap – San Jose, CA

2018 Inaugural Silicon Valley Half Marathon Race Recap – San Jose, CA

Finally, on Sunday morning, the headlining event of the weekend rolled around: the inaugural Silicon Valley half marathon (and 10k). After being excited over this new event for the past almost-year, and then getting really jazzed about it in the preceding week by participating in a community run out of Lululemon Santana Row on the previous Saturday, a community meet-and-greet run with Meb on Wednesday, the Food Truck 5k and the kids’ race on Saturday, finally — at long last — it was time for the event we were all so excited about.

community run to fan the stoke for SV race week (PC: @representrunning IG)

 

race weekend! race map! San Jose!

My singular goal going into the SV Half was simple: to finish. I had no pace expectations or guidelines, and Lisa specifically instructed me to treat it as a “glorified long run,” to go enjoy the course and the crowd and just have fun with it; if, and only if, I were feeling good should I try to pick it up the last 3-4 miles (and even if I felt good but simply didn’t want to pick it up, that would be fine, too). The race, 10 weeks post-stroke, would signify my longest continuous run and would be a milestone in the 5 ½ weeks I had been running since getting cleared at 4 ½ weeks post-stroke.

My very soft (mushy) time goal for the race, if I had to have one, was to stay within 8-8:30 range for most of the race and then see what happened from there, based solely on how I felt from racing at the Sactown 10 the week before. Again, though, I didn’t really care much about my pace and said that I wanted to “party-pace” it, to just go out, be comfortable, and build up my endurance again.

Fortunately, Janet was also running the SV Half as part of her MTB training plan, so we carpooled over to the race and ran a couple warm-up miles together. I woke up feeling pretty bad and spent a lot of QT with my bathroom because my stomach was in shambles, so I was worried that the race experience would be rather unpleasant. The weather was just lovely and really great for running, and once we ran over to the starting area, two miles later, we connected with many other RR ambassadors and Wolfpack runners who’d be toeing the line. I finally got to meet Margot in the starting corral (yay social media!), too, which was sweet. I knew there’d be just a handful of Wolfpack harriers racing that day, but there’d be a lot on the Alameda, serving as course volunteers. It was going to be a good morning and promised to be fun as hell (potential stomach issues be damned), heavy on the “woohoo let’s go have a good time and fun run this experience” and light on stress and self-inflicted pressure.

hi, Margot! bonus of fun-running a race is carrying my phone with me and taking pictures

 

more fun with friends, this time teammates Janet and Sam (HM and 10k, respectively). I’m wearing my Wolfpack trucker, except that it doesn’t fit my head really well, so I looked *real* cool with aviators and a backwards trucker for the entirety of the race (except for the pic right below this one)

 

most – but not all – of the Wolfpack harriers running that morning. I was wearing my RR ambassador tank since I had worn my Wolfpack orange the day before (PC: Melissa)

 

ambassador friends (plus Janet!), otherwise known as Brian and his harem (thanks, Amazon, for the free pics all weekend)

Before too long, we were off, and I comfortably settled into a pace that I thought felt manageable for 13.1. I didn’t clock-watch and instead relied on how I felt to dictate my effort. I recalled reading on the race site that the course would be different from RNRSJ and that it didn’t run on the GRT bikepath at all, and when I looked at the map beforehand, it looked like it’d be an interesting mix of a bunch of different areas of the city, some familiar to me and some not. We first began by looping around SJSU before eventually making out way over to Coleman and the Rose Garden area of the GRT. I felt comfortable and in control, and I was making a conscious effort to try to bring my pace down from 7:40s closer to 8s or even 8:30s. I didn’t feel tired or anything like that, but I also knew that I hadn’t run 13.1 continuous miles in months and that I was carrying significant volume on my legs from the week’s training. More than anything, I wanted to be careful. I felt well, I felt like I was actually running almost uncomfortably slowly, but c’mon: in longer endurance events like HMs, most people feel that way in the front half. I didn’t want to push early on only to absolutely tank later. My training and endurance just aren’t there yet.

I don’t remember where this was, but I think it might have been early, somewhere in the front half. that guy behind me is wearing the participant LS shirt (it’s really nice!).

Usually we read online posts urging you to never try anything new on race day, and most of the time, I’d absolutely heed that advice because otherwise, I’m sure I’d be the runner completely beset with crazy blisters or diarrhea down my backside due to poor-fitting shoes or not-so-GI-friendly gels. When I was at the Meb run earlier in the week, I tried Generation UCan for the first time (post-run), decided it tasted pretty good, and that I’d take it on course when the volunteers gave it out. Similarly, when I was preparing for the race, I couldn’t find my trusty AccelGels, only some Science in Sport (SiS) samples, and instead of freaking out about it, I figured what the hell. (It’s so unlike me to be so cavalier about race-day nutrition, but I think I figured eh, what have I got to lose). The AS were about every two miles for the first 8-9 miles and then just about every mile thereafter, and fortunately — and somewhat miraculously — neither the SiS nor the Gen UCan destroyed my GI system, and even better, they both went down smoothly. My stomach was still pretty uncomfortable and hurt through the first 5 miles — like 5/10 uncomfortable — but praise the universe that the discomfort passed, and the new fuel choices didn’t seem to exacerbate anything. Again: super lucky.

After we exited the Rose Garden area of the GRT, we began to return to downtown and looped around Cesar Chavez Plaza, right outside the Fairmount Hotel and the Tech Museum, before returning in the direction of the Alameda. This out-and-back, around mile 5 or so, was one of the first sections where we incoming runners could see those outgoing, which is always fun. By about halfway, I was still feeling well, running along comfortably, and just enjoying the experience of the inaugural race. Plus, my stomach felt better. I had no complaints in the world.

hi, Janet! She was coming off CC plaza, already past the Tech, while I was heading towards it

Once we hit up the Alameda — a familiar place if you’ve run other SJ races, like the 408k or RNR SJ, to name a few — I began to anticipate seeing my teammates on the sidelines. Sure enough, before too long, I began to see many of my teammates on each block lining the Alameda, a nice pick-me-up for sure. I recalled reading from When that we all tend to begin to slog a little in the middle of our endeavors — everyone does it, regardless of whatever activity or pursuit you’re undertaking, because the middle just doesn’t have the same type of momentum or urgency that, say, the beginning or the end has — so having my teammates present, even if only for a minute, helped keep the middle mile blues at bay.

passing by the SAP, where the 10k runners were finishing, and looking longingly at the line. it appears as though gravity is slowly knocking me over.

I knew after the Alameda we wouldn’t have too much longer before we’d begin our “back” portion of the race, once we looped around Lincoln HS, but for the life of me, I couldn’t remember how far we’d have left on the Alameda after running around LHS. As we looped around LHS, we had another opportunity to see the outbound leaders (and eventually, other inbound runners), and it was a lot of fun to cheer for so many friends and teammates running mid-race around their mile 10/11. It seemed like we were running through part of the super-pretty Rose Garden neighborhood of SJ, just as we do in the 408k, and before long, we had looped around the HS and began to inch our way towards the Alameda. It was somewhere in this stretch that I passed a guy running in a full-on suit (which I couldn’t help but think had to be terribly uncomfortable), and I fistbumped a bit for my friends running Boston the next morning when we turned onto Boston Ave. I was still feeling pretty well, tired for sure and beginning to warm up slightly, but by mile 10 of a half, I really couldn’t complain.

hello, friends Melissa and Jenn, starting their final 5kish stretch

Around mile 10, I recalled Lisa’s suggestion that if I felt well, and if I wanted to, I could try to pick things up that deep into the race, so I tried to begin picking people off as much as I could. I didn’t feel like I had a ton left in my reserves at that point, but I figured what the hell… if I run faster, I’ll finish faster. No doubt was I buoyed by the onslaught of cheers from the inbound runners (which I enthusiastically reciprocated), and I hoped that between those cheers, the pretty comfortable pace I had run earlier in the race, and seeing my teammates again along the Alameda for the final 2/2 and change that I could finish the race strong.

Historically, HMs have been a bit of an Achilles’ heel for me. I tend to not run them very well — usually either blowing up mid-race because I’ve paced it poorly or because I’m in the thick of marathon training and am exhausted AF and/or because my GI becomes a royal shit show and just implodes (explodes) for some reason. At the SV half, fortunately neither disaster transpired. Sure, I was getting tired toward the end because I hadn’t run 13.1 continuous miles since sometime in January (and thus, fresh off CIM fitness), but I wasn’t tanking so heartily as I often do in other HMs, nor was my GI system giving me the finger.

I usually do not look this happy in HMs

For being 10 weeks post-stroke and relying on 5 ½ weeks’ worth of training, I couldn’t be happier when I strolled into the finish chute at 1:43 and change for 13.2x (my watch had measured the course long almost from the get-go; it’s USATF certified, though, so I’m guessing it was just me). I was happy to be finished, but more than that, I was happy to be well enough and in a sufficient amount of fitness to be able to both start and finish the damn thing. That it and of itself was enough for me.

one left turn away from the finish line in front of SAP

 

and that’s a wrap. my shorts look forever long here for some reason.

Shortly after finishing, I collected an inordinate amount of hardware from the race — the huge finish medal, a 2.0 challenge medal for having run the 5k the day before and the HM that day, and another for running the 408 and the SV races. I’m not particularly into medals — truth be told, I donate most all of them — but I was genuinely impressed by the size and weight of these things, in addition to the little silicon chip-like detail (heyoo, Silicon Valley).

an example of one medal from the day’s festivities. huge and pretty impressive, right? (PC: @representrunning)

Soon after finishing, I found Janet, who had run a great race in her MTB marathon prep, and after we chatted with Dennis (whom I had seen the day before at the 5k as well) and performed some obligatory silly jump-shot pics, Janet and I went back re-ran the final mile of the course in reverse to cheer for more runners (allowing us to see Sonia and Christina in the process), talk to our teammates, and run a couple cool-down miles. By the end of the day, together we each had posted 17 miles between the race and WU/CD miles, which in turn put me at over 50 miles for the week: both new volume milestones for me post-stroke.

…and I felt great.

obligatory

Neither Janet nor I were interested in the free adult beverages that our bibs entitled us to, so we gifted our vouchers to someone who looked particularly thirsty, and we left. (In doing so, I missed all the post-race celebratory stuff from the ambassadors, but alas. It was nice to see them all before the previous day’s 5k race).

We lucked out with beautiful, running-friendly weather on race day, and with that, a fun (and very flat and very PR friendly) course, and great race day-organization and attention to detail, I think it’s safe to say that the inaugural SV Half went over without a hitch. Of course, by virtue of being a SMA for Represent Running races, the company comps my entries to these events, but hopefully by now you’d trust that I’m transparent in my evaluation and criticism of races that I run. I’ve raced a lot in the past decade-plus that I’ve been doing this stuff, and honestly, I would have had no idea that this was the inaugural year for this race. That, itself, is telling of how smoothly and successfully RR executed the race, IMHO. Being able to tell a race is new is, in general, not a good thing.

I hope that the SV Half becomes a mainstay in the SJ running scene, and if it does, I have no doubt that it’ll just continue to grow and improve. Having an early spring half on the calendar is advantageous because it’s a distance that’s accessible to a lot of people, and it’s one that can compel people to train through what is typically sometimes challenging “winter” conditions in SJ (though we bypassed a lot of that this year). Plus, realistically, even if you don’t want to commit to the HM distance, you could run the 10k or 5k; there really is something for everyone. Finally, as I mentioned before, the hardware was impressive (a big draw for a lot of people); the 5k participant shirt is a tech tee that I would actually keep and wear on training runs; and HM participants received a weekender-style duffle bag, which was a nice departure from the standard swag, as well as a genuinely good-looking quarter-zip tech long-sleeve tee that’s free of sponsor logos anywhere, one that I wore for days after the race. Plus: free race pictures! All good things, all good things.

You don’t have to run fast and PR or even train particularly arduously in order to have a positive race experience; this isn’t news, but sometimes I think it’s worth reminding myself. I went into the SV Half with zero expectations and nothing much in the way of goals, save for finishing the thing, and I couldn’t have been happier or enjoyed my morning (and really, the entire race weekend) more. I’m excited to see this race grow in the coming years and to cementing my “legacy” status.

If you find yourself in Silicon Valley next spring, I hope you’ll join me at the SV Half weekend. You’ll have a good time.